Tragic but True. I have to Look at You.

2009-11-14T23:21:00.002+08:00

HAHAH i knwwww like leo and liann said, i`m going to start my post with :

OMGSHHHHH after like a 12326814381947395641807409327108643971597 gazzillion years i`m blogging again. :D

i dnt knw wht inspired me to finally revive my oh so dead blog. Maybe it's cos i`m bored to DEATH. :/

so dalam sekelip mata, the exams are over and holidays are here. For some reason, i`m not as excited as i expected to be. Like okayokay je la tapi like something's missing? Macam excitement tu separuh je, the other half tah ke mana dah. And for some weird reason i`m blogging in kacuk2 languange? LOL.

lets seee let me tell you about today, because i think that's what bloggers are suppose to do (?) Okay, pagi2 i woke up and saw my phone it was 830. Thn i tidur baliklah kan since it's a saturday. Thn ttiba i woke up again at 9 and realised that i was suppose to go to school for japanese class. So i dragged myself out of bed and went down to call chia and ask wht time class over. She was sleeping so i had to call her BFF and ask. I bet everyone was surprised that i called. I could hear over the phone that she was like MAYYI?! with the incredulous voice, like disbelief. HAHA.

So i pergilah kan to class dgn my baju sukan and all, when i walked in to class i was like shite why is everyone with their baju keluar. Malu gile i, so i quickly sat down. :/ everyone was staring because the teacher REALLY likes to single me out. メイーイさんは、四きゅと三きゅの試験 blablabla, and the stares proceed. LOL.

After class pulak, i came home and fell into a slumberrr. HAHA. sleeping is the best way to spend your time, after shopping of course. Which reminds me about, the outing hari tu ! To the mines with the gang. BEST GILE. but of course i end up broke. Pictures the next post.! Suspense la kan? Or else mana nak dapat reader. :D

At night, we had family dinner thingy. AHH, kelakar gile. My chinese skills were put to the test. I had to translate a story into mandarin and ended up being laughed at. LOOOL, would be a sight ben and hockpin loved to see. :/

i think my blogging skills must have gone rusty . Malas ahh nak continue. So sampai sini je ulasan saya pada hari ini?

I DOUBT THERE'LL BE A TOMORROW ANYWAYS.!
but who knws la kan?
tgk2 i decide to surprise everyone and blog again.
and WTF is wrong with me?
why am i typing like tht?
rempit gile.

OHH PS: a post without picture! :O

2009-07-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

ZOMGGGGGGGGG.
i knwwww.
like after gazilliooonn 12343567894150-4928756325 years im BLOGGINGGGG.

BUT,
yes theres a BUT.
just to do the tags.
because i amveryboredddd.

TAGGED BY MANDA BIMBO
Rules :
1) Only girls can be tagged
2) Be truthful

Do you like makeup ?
What do you think.

Do you use makeup ?
Whn i feel like it lar.. Lol.

Tell us what makeup you have , please name the colors and brand :
Lipgloss - clear; biotherm
Mascara - Black; Bobbi Brown
Eyeliner - Black...Bobbi Brown
Eye shadow - Silver? I DONT KNW. its glittery laa
Blusher - M.A.C

How many dresses do you have ?
LOL 7?

Are you a lesbian ?
NOPE. i have too many guys. :D

What were you thinking about before doing this tag ?
its so coldddddd

What were you doing before doing this tag ?
Japanese class

Last song you listened to ?
MJ- Ghost

What are you thinking about now ?
PROMMM!

Who was the last person whom annoyed you ?
tht would be ben :)

Why ?
Cos he was being himself. or maybe cos he existed. both

Do you have any gay friends ?
BEN! :D

Who is your best friends ?
GOSH, too manyyyy.

Who is the last person that insulted you ?
CASEY stupid dumb shit. :)

Last time you smiled ?
Whn he msged me.

What do you say when people calls you pretty ?
oh i knw :) HAHAH jk. erhh thank you?

When was the last time someone told you you were pretty ?
i dnt really rmbr. i always get tht.

Do you hug everyone you greet ?
I HUG MANDAAA and SARAH the mosttttt

Do you still have your first kiss ?
this is the 21st century HELLOOOO! :P

Do you believe in saving your first kiss for marriage ?
lame question LAME.

TAGGED BY LESLIE.

Pass this tag to 10 people !

1. Liann
2. Nir
3. Leo
4. Vivian (she already did it)
5. Yernny
6. Shira
7. Leslie?
8. Bryant
9. Amanda
10. Niesha

1. Would you date number 5?
Chee Yern?! NOPE. shesss UG** AHEMMMMMM.

2. Number 2 just got in a car crash. How do you react?
OMGSH. i will ask the person who bang her to bang me so tht i die too :(

3. You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?
:O:O give her the LOOK. LOL

4. You come home and your room has been ransacked by number 4.
i will screw her because she sounds like a chickennnnn RIGHT VIV?

5. Number 1 is acting weird.
as always :)

6. Numbers 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
POOR NIESHAAAAA

7. Number 7 just got tickets for him/her and you to go to a concert. .
youre on! :D

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
HAHAHA drink?

9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
her problem laa. i dnt like her anyways :P:P :D

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
He will drive his proton like edward cullen and scare them away RAWRR

11. Number 7 and you are sitting on the couch watching a movie when he/her wrap his/her arm around you. ..
AHAHA i wouldnt find tht surprising :P im just TOO irresistible. :)

12. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.
JOM KITA PERGI

13. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus.
the bus will crash. we're too crazy

14. Number 6 calls you in the middle of the night because he/she can’t sleep.
HAHAH thn i wont be able to sleep to till the next morning.

15. Your walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.
HAHAHHA die x berani. :P

16. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.
HAHA Padan muka :P

17. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen is suddenly aflame.
i knew tht would happen :P

18. Number 5 comes to your door one day holding a koala.
weirdooo go away :d

19. Number 3just got you an X-Box.
OMGSHHH he will use it instead.

20. Number 9 challenges you to a children’s card game!

HAHHA on!

21. Number 1 thinks he/she’s overweight.
OMGSH LIANN! OVERWEIGHT? obsessed much?

22. Number 7 looks lonely!
HAHAHAHA i knw whyyy. its his face. :D

23. Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave her/him alone..
i will slap her.

24. Numbers 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you. .
THEY DID! OMGSHH hahaha and i was surprised!

25. Number 6 decide to dye their hair black. What do you say?
noooo! ur hair is nice already!

26. Number 2 tells you he/she is going to go out for a while, and then later you hear about a shooting where 2 went..
OMGSH i hope she nvr died.

27. You catch number 9 by him/herself, crying.
i will kick the person who made my wife cry . or was it husband . i dnt knw.

28. Numbers 1 , 3 , 5, and 6 all tackle you at once! Is it possible?
LOL no. i have telekinesis.

3 word, 8 letters, say it & im yours

2009-03-13T13:43:00.002+08:00

sudah kau kata ,
ia hanya depan mata
tapi mengapa kau tak tahu
bahawa ianya kamu?

im waiting, just waiting ,
for you to say them
for you to realise
tht i meant you.

adakah ini benar,
adakah ini kamu
adakah kita
mempunyai sesuatu.

i think ,,
i love you?

2009-03-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

i cant wait to go to sch tomorrrroooooowwwwww!!

2009-03-02T20:31:00.002+08:00

to those of you who thinks tht staying in a hospital is an experience,, THINK AGAIN.

first of all,
the bed freaking sucks. LOL.
its like made outta wood and ur lying in a coffin.
wht with tht siderails and all.

second,,
they stick stuff in you.
very painful .
& NO i dont mean STICK . Lol.
stupidd laa. sampai bengkak tgn aku skrang.

thirdddd,
OMG THE FOOOOD .
record man.
sucks like freaking crappp.
so wht do you do with stale pancakes? :P

make them seem more appealing lah.
so tht u can eat and show the doctor thn u can return :S:S

FOURTH.
sorrry, misss. i need to check ur blood pressure miss.
open your eyes, miss. look at the light.
miss, whats ur name?
lift your hands and legs, miss.
temperature normal, miss.
OMG. in the middle of the night okayyy.
so annoying.
you want your patients to get enough rest, no?

FIFTH.
no wi-fi in ward.
stupid betul lah!

sixthhhhh,,
its very very very very very boooooorrriiiiiinnnnggggggggggg.
like BEYOND BORING.
you have NO idea.

okayyh la.
lazy to type sudah. HaAHAHa.
ohh and GUYYSSSSSS,,

i love you guysss soo sooo much...
although u guys werent really THERE THERE,
but you guys were there.
i love you peoplee.
and thankkkkkk youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu for the mucho muchoo concerns, okayy. :)
nirmalliannshiracheeyernbenroshineeeehockpinstephchia
and of courseeeeee
mum and dad and bro and aunt and ni ni .

OMGSH longest post since FOREVER.
enough laa nih! :P

2009-02-27T11:55:00.001+08:00

life sucksssssssss.
and sleeping pills have been the best invention ever. :)
end of story

2009-01-31T12:40:00.001+08:00

OMG. Stupid laarrr. Gonna repair computer. :( GONNNA DIE . BYE WORLD.

I AM EMO

2009-01-24T21:01:00.002+08:00

I can honestly say,
You've been on my mind since I woke up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playin'
I remember the simple things
I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget
Is goodbye

I woke up this morning and played our song
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and then put it down
cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up with your ringtone
I hesitate but answer it any way
You sound so alone
I'm surprised to hear you say

You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing

You remember those simple things
We talked till we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish I'd forget
Is saying goodbye

Saying goodbye

2009-01-16T20:27:00.001+08:00

i HATE HER. i HATE FOOD
end of story

2009-01-16T20:27:00.000+08:00

i HATE HER. i HATE FOOD
end of story

the force is broken.

2009-01-06T16:09:00.003+08:00

DUDEEEEEEE!!
its like the second day of schoool and its already so BORING and tiresome.

and today is like , the worst day ever recorded in history!
liann and steph is separated!
STUPID LA.
stupid school stupid system.
HOW LAAA.
how are we going to survive! NOT ONLY THIS YEAR.
next year we're in the same class too!
so tht means double year of liann and steph-less!
i cant imagine.

alar alarrrrrrr.
i miss form 3 already.
not depressing.
we were all together.
prema's dream come true, this.

AND WHTS WORSE IS.
BOONPO! there are like 2 boon po's in my class!
RAWRRR.
one's the real boon po and the other is tht tan something guy who's name i forgot.
STUPID LA.
gone are the days whn i can get number one! THNKS TO CHINESE!
stupid laaa! WHY DO THEY TAKE CHINESE! UGH !

our class teacher's pn balbir the who-are-you teacher.
the first thing she asks everyone is WHO ARE YOU.
and we're stuck with her for 2 years!
can't wait >.>

hock pin is back frm shanghai and i made him fall! HAHA
im so proud of myself. :D
i wanted to pull his chair away and accidentally pulled it too far and he fell right back! LOL
kesian him. he was drinking water so yeah :)
thn he started his balas dendam-ing.
splashing water and boo-ing.
AHH the JOY!

we were so bored , we started playing the finger thingy where you have to use ur thumb to press the other persons thumb for 5 seconds . gosh i make it sound so confusing LOL .

and we also played mickey-mouse-see. HAHA shira sucks at it.

BINGO and the WORD GAME.

and the game where u have to collect the sticks in a bunch without moving the others. ecept we used pens hahaha. gay,no?

drew on the table,,

and went online manually. HAHA

COOLING OFF NOT WARMING UP EH NIR? HAHA

PS: if you're wondering why the pictures are upside down , im making a statement! LOL upside down pics are cool! :D

2009-01-03T12:43:00.003+08:00

omgsh! can i babble about how fast 2008 seemed to have passed?
seriously! and this holiday! SO UNPRODUCTIVE! should have went to camp. RAWR.

last year was well,,,
VERY UNEXPECTED

made new friends, whom i NEVER thought i'd hang out with.

and LOOK at us now!

joined activities i never IMAGINED playing,,

we even went for mss okay!

GOING GREEN! as in the sports days green! :D

tht pics awful! LOL

and have had the world biggest breakdown ever.
no pics for tht.

ACHIEVED MY DREAM!!

oh yes i was crying.

been thrown a surprise party!

and THROWN A SUPRISE PARTY!

our OH so successful cake!

even had a facebook account! :D

fell in love with edward cullen.

PLURK.

friends with all kinds of celebrities,,

Cristiano Van Gassie & Theo Babel

Mrs Cullen 2, Mrs Cullen 3, Mrs Cullen 4 & Mrs Cullen 5!
Mrs Cullen 1 is me of course. :P

oh you get the idea. LOL

i cant imagine wht to expect this year.
schools about to begin,
i hope the gangs all in the same class AND there'll still be vball!
i want to be more involved in school activities this year.

READY OR NOT FORM 4, HERE I COME!
get ready to have ur ass kicked stupid physics!
i just KNOW i'll hate you!

PS: all tht stupid new year resolution crap never work. the only one i'm going to stick with is my diet - which clearly isnt working cos im still fat!

twisting and turning

2008-12-30T01:14:00.002+08:00

OMGSHHHHHHH!! nervous breakdown!

I CANT FREAKING SLEEP!!
this is killing me!
im feeling so jumpy and i got the butterflies LOL.
i wanna scream jump and vandalise something !! :S

was on the phone with chee yern,,
no, its not JUST pmr.
its PMR!

omgshomgshomgshomgshomgshomgsh
wht am i gonna do!

i can actually make a soundtrack of how i feel right now.

first, in the morning i tell myself SO WHAT. thn my optimism started to GET LOW. i keep telling myself that IT DOESNT MATTER, NO (cos i got you XD) . so i distracted myself with shopping and talking to my GIRLFRIENDS. & try to EASE MYSELF. when i was on the QUIETDRIVE back home frm shopping, my mind started to fill with really bad, bad images. so i tell myself, this anxiety has got to stop- IT ENDS TONIGHT. but tht was then. right now, i can't help but feel like MY WORLDS GONNA COME CRASHING DOWN. and what determines it is just some, like it or not, ALPHABETS!. tomorrow morning i knw im going to freak out and wanna turn back, but i DONT WANNA MISS A THING. so i have to JUST STAND UP, HEADSTRONG, & KEEP HOLDING ON till i get the piece of paper that, somehow will determine my future. Right now i just wanna CLOSE MY EYES, and try to LET IT BE. i might even need to be SLEEPING WITH MY LIGHTS ON, just in case.

and tomorrow will be the fox 20th century theme song.

2008-12-15T00:32:00.002+08:00

Rules:*1. Those who get tagged must answer the question about themselves.*2. At the end of the post, tag 10 people except the person who tagged you(tagger).*3. Continue this game by sending to other people.(refer to rule No.2).

Time: 12:33am
Name: May Yi
Age/Birthday: 010593. Presents, remember? :P
School: SMK BBSL
Elder sisters: 0
Younger sisters: 0
Elder brothers: 0
Younger brothers: 1 HELL on earthe man.

Favourite liquids[drinks]: caramel cream frap? :D
Favourite consumables[food]: Well, i eat ANYTHING that im NOT suppose to! :S
Favourite place to sleep: on my own bed. or his. :P OH I KNW! next to edward. :D
Flying?: I'd love to !
Swimming/Diving?: Diving!

How much friends in MSN?: lazy to count.
Couple?: Unavailable! :P
Loved ones?: edwardcullenedwardcullenedwardcullenedwardcullenedwardcullenedwardcullenedwardcullen

Get kicked on the butt: NO, i kick people's butt!
Allergic?: YOU? :P
Gastric?: YES! they hurt! :(

Whole fortune: ALREADY GOT LA! :P edward, love, money, shopping, friends and family. :)
Age of marriage?: LOL? 26? 27?
Children wanted?: 2 one girl one boy :)
Age of death?: HAHA im immortal (vampire, remember?) :P
Animals in house?: chocolate! :D

Longest fingernail ever kept: u might wana ask aunty diane this question. HAHA belle's answer hit jackpot! :P

Wanted birthday present : HAHA you really want me to answer this question? I'll answer it anyways. :P pink lappie, grow tallllllerrrrrrrrr, and slimmer, everything i think of after this.

Q: In your dream, a god tells you that you are a billionaire in your dream world and gives you a wish. What would you wish for?: A wish whenever i want one. :)

The person you tag:
1. Liann

2. Nirmal

3. CHEEYERN YES YOU!

4. Shira

5. Jia Wei

6. Aaron

7. Jinrui

8. William

9. Carmen

10. I REALLY DONT KNW THT MANY PPL LA! annoying .

What is your name ? ( please give one answer )
Mayyi Cullen :)

What is your nickname ? ( please give one answer )
Mayyi

Three books which you often read ? ( please give three answers )
Twilight

SImply irresistable

Breaking dawn

The things gained from blogging ( please give four answers ) Scolding from parents.

Arguement with bro.

A photobucket account

& nothing else good.

Your favourite food ? ( please give five answers )
PASTA :)

chocolate is food.

CANDY FLOSSSSSSSSS

mcd's chicken nuggets.

baked potatoes! :D

Favourite songs ? ( please give six answers )
So what - Pink

T-Shirt - Shontelle

Flightless bird american mouth - Iron and wine

Still - Hillsong

Skyway Avenue - We the Kings. (queens, ruben? :P)

Only fooling myself - Kate Voegele

Places that you wish to go ? ( please give seven answers )
SHOPPING AROUND THE WORLD :D

edward's house :P

paris <3>

a fairytale castle; LAUGH ALL YOU WANT!

heavenn (:

into a cyberworld for fun! :D

away from my parents

countdown for new year.

All-time fovourite dramas, movies, or animes ? ( please give eight answers )
TWILIGHT <33

one tree hill

a walk to remember

school of rock :D

hereos SYLAR IS SO HOT

TWILIGHT,

a cinderella story

gossip girl XOXO.

Items that you wish to obtain ? ( please give nine answers )

a pink lappie :)

a boyfriend :S HAHA boyfriend is an item :P

how about EVERYTHING? :P

You want to pass this tag to ? ( please give the names of 10 friends )
shut up la anyone who wants to do this.

A. Attached or single?

Attached? HAHA. tahulah siapa kan? :P

B. Best friend?

if you are one you won't question this (:

C. Cake or pie?

CAKEE

D. Day of choice?

FRIDAY!

E. Essential item?

Piano, phone, computer, candies, chocolates, MONEY :D

F. Favorite color?

PINK!!

G. Gummy bears or worms?

bears! they're cuter!

H. Hometown?

KL.

I. Favorite indulgence?

Chocolate and music.

J. January or July?

July. Holidays coming.

K. Kids?

L. Life isn't complete without?

Family, friends, and edward. :) oh and internet.

M. Marriage date?

WHAT SIAO, BELLE? we were suppose to get married on the shit i forgot. LOL.

N. Number of magazine subscriptions?

NONE?

O. Oranges or apples?

Apples

P. Phobias?

thunder. :S and lizards.

Q. Quotes?

alot lar. does LOL count?

R. Reasons to smile?

do i need a reason?

S. Season of choice?

winter! why dont have?

T. Tag 10 people.

SAME AS ABOVE

U. Unknown fact about me?

i`m not human :)

V. Vegetable?

yummy ! :) yes, liann?

W. Worst habit?

sleeping at 4 waking up at 2.

X. X-ray or ultrasound?

im not pregnang u idiot.

Y. Your favorite foods?

too many?

Z. Zodiac sign?

tauras baybeh!

~~He/she~~ YOU have to come up with 7 interesting or random facts about ~~themself~~ YOURSELF and then tag 7 other people to do the same.

1. I am suppose to go jogging tomorrow.

2. I am married to edwardcullen. <3

3. I am screwed if i dont figure out how to play the pieces .

4. I am on a diet which is not working and unbearably painful. :(

5. I want to go shopping and buy lots of things.

6. I am actually really tall HAHA.

7. I want to continue piano lessons :(

Same as above. How many times must I say this?!?!

FINALLY DONE!

♥

2008-12-09T20:58:00.002+08:00

i have been a BAD BAD friend. i just realised that.........

I DIDNT WISH AARON!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry god! forgive me will you? :P

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!!

i only known him just recently. through plurk!
HAHA. yes thank god for plurk. and in this case god isnt aaron. :P
from this few months i've known him, he has been a real laugh. LOL.
really funny, and i notice likes u use deep english when he blogs- SHOWOFF!
ah well, i do know something else. COUGH. even though this is a birthday post, LIANN IS MINE AND FOREVER MINE OKAY? :P
retaliate lah i dont care. D:

nirmal,, i hate yellow skin. SIGH. but i hate giant thighs and ass more :( ! WHAT TO DO!! dilemma! i seriously need to stop eating. or as chee yern would say go exercise. LOL. funny talking about exercise lol cos i was suppose to go today! SET two alarms infact. but when i woke up it was too bright to be 7.30 instead it was almost 9. got a msg frm liann and went back to bed . AT LEAST I WOKE UP BEFORE 1 ! :P

holidays are killing me. times like this really makes me feel like going back to school! jeeez, i wouldnt mind a bit of prema's sarcasm and jibes. :S OH OH AND BREAKING NEWS. Apparently pmr results might be released earlier this year. Around the 15th or 16th! GOSH. thats scary you knw! seriously i hope i get 7As. i might die if i dont! GAHHHH talking about this makes me nervous. i wonder if we can check our results online? :S like piano exam. :S:S

i've got nothing to say.

2008-12-02T20:12:00.002+08:00

before i type in wht i wanna type, all ~~TWILIGHT~~ edward fans, step off okay?

A normal guy would say: “I love you Baby!”
MY Edward Cullen would say: “You are my life now.”

Normal Guy would say: “I think I am falling for you.”
MY Edward Cullen would say: “The Lion fell in Love with the Lamb”

Normal Guy would say: “You hair looks like a haystack; go brush it!”
MY Edward Cullen would say: “Your hair looks like a haystack but I like it.”

A normal guy would pick a random song from a random artist and dedicate it to you.
MY Edward Cullen would sing me a song he wrote for me while playing the piano.

If you die, a normal guy would find another.
If I die, Edward would kill himself cause life without you isn’t worth living.
“Well, I wasn’t going to live without you..” He rolled his eyes as if that fact were childishly obvious. “..but I wasn’t sure how to do it. I knew Emmet and Jasper would never help so I was thinking maybe I would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi.”

As you leave the house, a normal guy would say: “Bye, see ya!”
As I leave the house Edward Cullen would say: “Come back to me, love.”
He smiled my favorite smile. “Hurry back to me.”
“Always.”

As you come back to the house, a normal guy would be watching TV and wouldn’t even notice.
As I come back to the house, MY Edward Cullen would be welcoming me by playing the piano with a song just for me.
“I heard the music before I was out of the car. Edward hadn’t touched his piano since the night Alice left. Now, as I shut the door, I heard the song morph through a bridge and change into my lullaby. Edward was welcoming me home.’

A normal guy would wait for you to make him breakfast.
Edward Cullen would make ME breakfast everyday.

While you are both out for dinner, a normal guy wouldn’t keep his eyes off the sexy waitress.
MY Edward Cullen wouldn’t even notice the waitress was a female.

A normal guy, while driving, would keep one hand on the wheel and one hand on the radio.
MY Edward Cullen, while driving, would keep one hand on the wheel and the other attached to mine!

While far apart in different places, a normal guy would say: “I miss you.”
While far apart in different places,MY Edward Cullen would say: “It’s like you’ve taken half myself with you”

A normal guy wouldn’t care or notice if you had nightmares.
MY Edward Cullen would sing until my nightmares went away.
“Do you want me to sing to you? I’ll sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams away.”

A normal guy does it with everyone.
MY Edward Cullen only does it with one.

A normal guy buys you flowers and chocolates.
MY Edward Cullen buys me a car. (THE BEST PART! HAHA!)

Edwardism

2008-11-28T23:38:00.001+08:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

2008-11-27T21:49:00.002+08:00

first of all,
EDWARD IS MINE!

I WANT TO BLOG! i really do! but my STUPID ass brother wants to reformat the computer
not tht he knows how to. ASS. anyways wht i really wanted to say was the twilight is like THE MOVIE OF THE YEAR! like omgsh seriously everyone should watch it.

gosh there were ppl there even earlier there than us! we reached at around 950. man! there was this girl with a edward cullen t shirt too! ugh. MAN the movie was crazy. before it started even cheered and went TWILIGHT! we clapped it was AWESOME! like so awesome! thn we were just WAITING for the part where edward appears! everyone yes everyone not js the gang we OMG ! hahahahaha the most anticipated! AHHH i dont knw how to describe it was like seriously a MUST watch. i shall not spoil it for those who have not watched it. I STILL FEEEL LIKE SCREAMING!!!

EDWARD IS SO MINE!

2008-11-18T13:46:00.004+08:00

OKAYYYYYYYYY. i was joking! :P

so since i nvr got around to do the genting post i shall do it now okay? :P

lets js say the didnt kick start in a not too good way. :S was ignored. hmm. thn i decided wtf. who cares. im suppose to be having fun. and yeah i did! :)

we left schoool say around 7.30 i think and since everyone wanted the back seat nirmal RAN like literally. and got busted by the teacher. and i think there were ppl who booed us. LOL. the bus was crazy. i put on my shades and they said it was mata lalat. LOL seriously these ppl dont knw wht fashion is. :P

they as in nirmal shira and steph were trying to convince me to go on the solero and corkscrew. LOL. well i was looking forward to the flying coaster or the flying COCKster. LOL! it js came out i dont knw why okay . but i rained stupid stupid rain! LOL. ishh lets js let the pictures do the talking. pictures say a million words , no? :P

in the bus.

Thn we went to some weird animal kingdom where we met our family members and ancestors. LOL.

freaking cute this hedgehog.

nirmal's cousin

after animal kingdom. LOL. we decided to camwhore at the escalator reflection. i knwww. LOL

thn we went on the cable car to go up to genting the top top there. LOL

yes dont ask me why we screamed okay. LOL.
and shira was so overexcited cos the other cable cars coming down had hot guys in it.
and she started waving like a hyper gila siao LOL. memalukan saje. haihhhh. :P

after we reached there we got to change cos there is just NO possible way we can
go to snow world with our sch uniforms so yeah. & the snow world was like SERIOUSLY cold. like super duper cold we were like super frozen hahah they had to help me like button my jacket cos my hands were too numb. so much for EVEREST eh nirmal LOL.

whn our fingers were still numb

coooool eh? credits to chia. :P

Thn we went to ripley's.

this is the coolest part. we point our fingers whn the flash goes off and tadahh our shadows printed on the wall! :D

and this is the apparently hot bodiless monster that flirts. LOL. i wonder how they see through the make up. :P

the wall of ties. LOl i think i like ties now.

biggest chair in the world apparently. LOL really makes me look even SMALLER man.

thn we went to the theme park. Lol.

i dont knw whts this called but it was fun! we were flying! :D:D

while queuing up for cyclone.

on the cyclone pun sempat take pic.

while nir and them went on the solero me liann and chia went on the ferris wheel which was freaking fast okay it like ZOOMED so super duper fast till everything was a blur so thts why we could take such nice pictures :D yes nirmal?

the fog were so thick. and it was so low :S

thn we ate! :D

cottoncandy!!

STARBUCKS! :D

:D

thn it was going home time.

coming down in the cable car.

whn we landed on the not genting genting. Lol.

sleeping on the way back.

AND TADAHHHH .
that is the end of the story.
GOODBYE.
my gosh this took me so long okay :S

2008-11-18T13:44:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA. okay should i blog? yes? no?

NAH i think not! :P

2008-11-11T19:28:00.002+08:00

MAJOR CRISIS!!

i knw this may sound a little bimbotic - FINE very bimbotic, but i seriously dont knw wht to wear tmrw! Help me pick ? :S

HOW COME I NVR THOUGHT OF THIS BEFORE! :D

but thn if i wear short sleeve thn i'd have to wear a jacket and mine is the tying one and i dont like tying one but if i wear black thn it would match my shoes SO hoW?! :S:S

OMGSH i SO sound like a clothes obsessed! :S wait i AM!
shopaholic is like THE best book ever. After twilight of course. HAHA. i cried whn she had to sell all her things away. Especially the part where she sold her Denny and George scarf the only thing i could think of was luke. OMGSH and it was SOOO romantic when he is the one who bought it. :S nirmal thinks im nuts. IM SO NOT!

i have a really painful blister on my feet. TWO actually. pfft.

GENTING TMRW PEOPLE. i think im looking forward to it. i mean who knws maybe got la some people will be there. HAHA. roller coaster? i dont think so nirmal.

Universal Studio, College, and Getting Married. Nirmal its just all part of our secret fantasies. How pathetic eh? 10 years later.

2008-11-10T14:36:00.001+08:00

TESTING 1 2 3
TESTING 1 2 3

PERCUBAAN 1 2 3
PERCUBAAN 1 2 3

okay i dont knw wht is it in chinese okay? :S

2008-11-09T21:03:00.002+08:00

I dont knw why but i have the sudden urge to blog. BUT!! i dont knw wht to blog about. Gosh.
Im feeling kinda pissed now . I was in 1u. & i didnt get to buy anything!! GRR. it js feels WEIRD if i dont buy anything when i go out. Even if its just some knick knacks like nail polish or whatever i still feel satisfied but i bought NOTHING! ZILCH. pffft.

oh and if you guys dont already knw, i curled my hair. LOL. not very shocking actually. Been thinking of doing it for a long time. Whn my cousin came over it was so sudden and decided there and thn that yeeah i wanted curly hair so yeah i have curly hair now. & i LOVE IT. but every body's saying i look OLD with curly hair But whatever who cares i loveeeeee it! :D

it was LONG. the process. js sat there and he was fiddling with my hair. I was liike DYING to see the result the process seem to go by so slowly. ISH. and tehre were no mirrors so i HAD to wait. It was some roller rubber like thingy. omgsh tht js sounds wrong. but ANYWAYS, lets js let the pics do the talking shall we.

its so boring now that PMR is over and holidays are coming and all. Its like theres NOTHING to do at ALL. like where did all the excitement go? Not really looking forward to the genting trip too. :S apparently no theme park so yeah. whats the point anyways. but might take my mind off THINGS.

life continue to suck. seriously. it is SOO depressing. like make up ur mind. leave me ALONE or dont leave at all. sigh. seriously, i love my bitches the most. no troubles like this. everytime there's just SOMETHING that makes me feel nostalgic about tht period of time which probably was NOTHING to you. SIGH.

omgsh this post is so random! bits of this and that here and there. LOL. so just now whn i was in 1u, hock pin was there too. LOL. apparently he's hot hotter than those models there. *cough cough* its been so long since i last saw him tht i forgot how convincing he can be. LOL. we were suppose to see who spotted who first and got really excited in the end we didnt even meet. LOL.

YES NIRMAL. it is NOT surprising that i watch the ball! i always do. Just that i dont tell you. This sounds really wrong. Looks like the dirty part of my mind is still there even though i hardly see the guys anymore. Lol. Oh and apparently my blogs too colourful so there it shall be boring and dull frm now on. :(

AND i hereby would like to represent all of chee yern's innocent victims in public humiliation. LOL. Liann has taken revenge on her. We all would like to say thank you to liann wont we? :P
Click here to take a look at how Chee yern REALLY looks like. :D:D

2008-11-08T23:55:00.001+08:00

i was gonna blog thn something happened so yeah. now im not in the mood anymore. stupid screw ups.

2008-11-07T19:43:00.003+08:00

the one most regretful thing that i've done in my life.
is that i waited.
that was 8 months ago when you told me to.
AND I DID.
i was stupid enough to believe you and i still am.

Why is it that you never look at me anymore?

Why is it that you dont talk to me anymore?
You dont even give me a second glance.
Its like i dont matter.
I know i dont matter.

Do you not dare look at me anymore,
Because you are afraid of my emotions?
Do you not dare talk to me anymore,
Afraid it will trigger those memories.

Why is it that i cant seem to let go?
Why do i have to compare you to every single guy.
Why do i find myself smiling whn someone says your name,
thn remember what happens and the smile fades.

Like the wind.
Whn its there, its the most wonderful thing.
After a hot sweaty day, a wind breezes by.
& after awhile its gone.
& u realise that its even worse than before,
because you have felt what the wind can do.

Just whn i thought i got over you,
This song comes on the radio and reminds me about you.
Or i come across this quote & the first person to come to mind is you.
Or i go to a place that reminds me of you.
Or you look at me.

& i realise that im NOT
over you.
& i wonder when will i be.
so tell me, what hurts more?
letting go or not letting go.

2008-11-03T14:36:00.002+08:00

Picture of Happiness contest. All you have to do is submit a photo of your idea of happiness. Can be anything really. Prizes are the Sony Skinny T Camera. Nirmal i know you want it. :)

This is my picture of happiness.

2008-11-02T21:57:00.007+08:00

you knw! i wanted to blog about today. about the kfc thing. thn i realised there's nothing to blog about it. it was okay la. loads of ppl and all. but it was very UN-US! we didnt laugh tht loud. we didnt camwhore tht much. we didnt even really talk. :S all in all i expected something more. Lol.

im like SO bored. seriously. thought after pmr should be fun right. stupid la. theres nothing to do cos practically everything u wanna do u already done like the week after pmr. so now im like rotting at home. and i have the sudden urge to study. omgsh whn i wanted to type study i typed stupid. LOL.

the halloween sleepover with the girls was a blast. HAHA. actually it was nothing halloween related. we wanted to tho. make up like halloween and all. but we didnt. so yeah. we played spelling bee :S call us lame but it was fun okay . kenakan chia with words tht ended with E and Y. LOL. apparently before she slept she kept on thinking about words that started with them. haha.

things we want to happen dont happen at the right time do they liann? Lol. ish i wanna watch GG and OTH. who the hell is julian. i hope he doesnt ruin their marriage :S

omgsh i have officially nothing to blog about already so i shall do the tag. :S

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Those who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

# Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people

1. Name the persons you tagged.

haliqa arihahs. LOL.
belle chen! :D
CHEE YERN- its time u blog about SOMETHING

2. Describe yourself in one word.

hotsexaybeautifulsmartprettycleverfantasticcrazybitchyrichfamousfabulousssssss.

see. one word. :P

3. Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?

everyone loves me. so yeah. the one i love. :)

4. Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her?

like i said. everyone loves me. why would i not have the courage to not tell? LOL.

kidding. yeah.

5. How if people reject your confess face to face?

they dont :)

6. God is giving u just 5 more minutes before going back to heaven, IF you love someone special, what will you say to that person?

please kill ureself and come with me.

7. What will u say to a person who doesn't want to believe u?

its now or never baby.

8. Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?

no need. :)

9. Do you have something important with you all the time?

my phone my life. :D

10. Long distance love ?

never work. i knw.

11. Best place to cry?

rooftop.

12. Who do you love the most?

chad michael murray, edward, fabregas, tht guy frm another cinderella story. i love them all the most.

13. Tell us of your dream last night?

that we were in kfc for the jamuan. :S

14. Ever hated someone so bad?

oh yeah.

15. The biggest & most hurtful lie you heard?

ouchiess.

16. The last person you had a beer with?

my dad!

17. The last person you went to the movies with?

my TEAM. only they'd know.

18. The last person you talked on the cell phone with?

ben :D

19. The last person you hugged?

NATASHA! :D chia hui's doesnt count :P

20. The last person you yelled at?

stupid ass brother.

21. In the last week have you kissed someone?

oh boy ;)

22. Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?

i want my tamagotchi!

23. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

7Assss.
ice-cream.
and not get fat.

24. If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?

SHOPPING IN PARIS!

25. Are you old fashioned?

the word old fashion is like SO YESTERDAY! *rolls eye*

26. What would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?

staring at you knw who. ;P i knw cos i tried js now. LOL

27. Five facts About Me:

LOUD

wild!

if i dont like you, youre dead. :)

you cant wake me up when there's fire.

shopping in heels.

28. Five things that scare me:

LIZARDSS! EW EW

creepy crawlies.

weird ass stalkers.

thunder.

exams :S

29. Two Songs Playing in My Head Lately:

fall for you

lucky
*deep blue ~~ocean~~ SKY!*

30. Five Things I treasure in my life

familyy :)

my darlingss.

treasuree! :D

whoever came up with the idea of shopping! :P

my baby bolster! <3
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this is like THE most uncolourful post ever!
& i like this picture horizontal better. :D

2008-10-19T09:55:00.003+08:00

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!
its like FINALLY over!
mygosh. the LONG AWAITED!

after all the sleeping at 1 am and waking up at 4am.
THOSE DAYS ARE OVER BAYBEH!!!
time to parteyy! wooh!
goodbye geografi and kh. good riddance.
and kh wont help me be a better wife.
i still dont knw if kuih keria's savouri or manis. :P

hahahahhahahha.
i feel so HAPPY typing to post right now .
imagine this.
i dont have to study tht stupid sejarah anymore.
stupid sultan whatever shah. XDDD

so after the bendera penjajahan diturunkan.
like RIGHT after the last paper,, GEO,
we were like staring at the clock.
WILLING the hand to move faster!
and thn we were like OMGSH . about to scream.
and tht freaking invigilator had to tell us to shut up.

ISHHH.
later we had to kumpul at the dataran for some whatever thingy they were talking about.
LOL. someone actually brought a GUN!
crazy ass.
:S

hmms, after tht the gang went to MIDV .
coolio!
first time out with nirmal and shira.
oh the love! :P
the girls all came to my house like after school.
and while we were getting ready i showed nirmal my arsenal mag.
AND WE GOT STEPH TO FALL IN LOVE WITH FABREGAS.
and fab looks like SOMEONE , dont we all agree? :D

oh the usual, we went there by bus and ktm , which is not so usual for me, no.
second time if u must knw.
the bus ride was okay cos it wasnt really crowded but OMGSH the return one was AWFUL.
stuffed and crowded . and smelly. ugh
first there was a U41 tht stopped so we got on thn the guys got seperated so yeah! we came back down. sacrificed SO MUCH for u guys better appreciate.
in the end my dad and hockpin's mum fetch.
oh camwhoring in a crowded ktm is FUN! :D
taking pictures of random HOT strangers! XD

at the KTM station was real hilarious!
we had to go thru tht put the ticket thingy in thing yeah.
right, so after we all got thru,
hockpin was STUCK!! LOL!.
was soo funnyyy! and everyone else went off.
me being the nice one waited for him. thn the train was there already so we all had to RUNNN into the train like ~~mad person.~~ crazyyy.

whn we reached the station at midv.
we had to go thru tht put the ticket in thingy again.
me, nir and hockpin, is like SO INEXPERIENCED i tell u!
we put the ticket thingy in, and put our hands at the place where the ticks are suppose to come out. WHICH was not suppose to! AHAHA.
so memalukan okay.

OMGSH my neck js crammed!
ouchhies.

anyways, we watched eagle eye!
me and nir yeah dont really get the whole aria thingy .
we js knw tht shia is SO HOT!
and the movie was okay. nice la.

oh yeah we splitted up for lunch.
yes, SPLITTED up.
like nir said, pmr over, english also over.
me steph and shira the high class people went to SUSHI KING.
nir and liann the low class ppl ate at mcds.
hockpin ben and zhe hou the middle one ate at carls jr. which in my opinion is NOT NICE.

we went shopping too!
the guys were dead bored. HAHAH
tried on banyak banyak things~
pictureesssss to come whn nir gives em to me.

was suppose to belanja SOMEONE ice cream.
HEHE. which i didnt. :P
sorrry. :)
and sharing ice cream with berbanyak banyak org is FUN.

2008-09-27T21:27:00.002+08:00

OKAY OKAYYY.
i knw .
i've been abandoning my blog.
BUT its not my fault k.
BUSY STUDYING U KNW.
ahem ahem.
pmr 15 more days.

mygosh.
i cant wait till its OVER.
i told nir.
we're gonna kumpul at the padang,
with all our books,
set a fire and burn them!
like those orang asli dance around the fire! LOL.
tht will be the day.

i wanna go out on tht friday.
MidV .
i can't believe SOME PEOPLE wants to go cc.
*cough cough*

omgsh. nw im worried.
wht if i ....
DONT GET 7As?
i'll die.

& i have NO WILL POWER AT ALL!
im not suppose to be talking to my mum and bro.
BUT no!
i talked to them and only after one day!
GRRRR.

so yesterday we had our 'study group' in hockpin`s house.
LOL. we STUDIED. yeah. mmm hmm. we did .
we studied geo RIGHT?
we nw knw whts bdr muadzam shah for, or do we? :S
SADLY,, hockpin looks ~~cool~~ whn he drums. =/
and he has promised to teach me, yes? =P

GRRRR.
wht phone should i buy?
i already made up my mind tht i was going to buy W580i but thn shiyi bought it.
so thn i wanted w910i. THN steph bought it.
so i decided i was going to buy w660i.
& hockpin bought it! GRRR.
wht should i buy nw? =/

ohhh... i passed! i freaking passed!
AHAHAHA shocking.
i expected to fail.
the examiner with her sarcasm and all.
i`ve got nice hair according to her
i made aunty guat kim a thank you card and wrote some notes inside
she didnt open it yesterday.
thn today in church she was talking to me and said
mayyi chong! naughty ar ure card!
thn she kissed me!
and said our secret yah!
LOL!.
i love her la.
i wanna piano lessons with her again =(

alright..
im off to study now.
dont laugh.
im serious.
very serious.

2008-09-22T20:28:00.003+08:00

MAYBE its best if i moved.
start all over.
things here are js getting worse.

MAYBE its best if i leave.
before its too late.
before it gets any worse.

I dunno wht the problem is nw.
or WHO is the problem.
but there is js a PROBLEM.

& i think its not gonna be good for either of us.
for ANY of us.
hoes over bros right.

MAYBE if i leave
we can salvage whts left.
wht little bits left.

i'd give ANYTHING to stay friends.
& i hate bitching or gossipping abt my friends.
and yet i am.

so i should stop doing whatever it is im doing
and be the old me.
which i cannot find.

i think i need help.
but no im not going to ask u for directions.

THERE I BLOGGED HAPPY?

2008-09-17T20:33:00.002+08:00

OMGSH!!
my heart is like beating so fast right now.
i just finished watching one tree hill.
it is like..
OMGSH.
no words can describe.
i wouldnt say it is the best episode i've watched.
but still.
it was realllly sad.
wht happened to Q was really unexpected.
and everyone going through his death was well devastated.
i cant explain!
all i can say is GO WATCH IT!!

nathan said some things to brooke about understanding how he felt about
parents who act like kids.
i dunno wht to say i really dunno wht to say

2008-09-11T15:16:00.007+08:00

Camwhoring with the gang is like SOOO fun!
and thts wht we have been doing the past two days.
and nirmal is right ( for like the very first time)
we're like a bunch of devils when hell breaks lose!

smile!! FASTER TAKE!

SHIT teacher looking!

PRETENDD!

YES! it worked! She still doesnt knw wht we're doing! =P

Mayyi: EWW? look at ben.
Ben: HEY people! Im ben and im gay.

me and nir is doing the same pose. and hockpin ruins the view haha.

Me and Nir same mouth. Ben and Hockpin same hair.

we had war of the worlds js nw. LOL.
fine maybe not war of the world.
war of the legs! LOL.
me, nir, and liann gang banged hockpin.
but damn he keeps stepping on us and we had to plan a strategy
which failed.
by the end of the WAR..
ours shoes are white LOL.

my partners in crime.

ASSHOLE . LOL.
they played chi ku pak. my business pulak.
Flicked me whn shira lost.
so painful
.

defending myself! :D

the world-breaking record of funniest moment in mayyi`s life is now held by ter hock pin & his super strength.
doesnt he realise his strength? like ronaldo`s AHEM.
stupid ass.

hockpin: OI! dont kacau me la i wanna do my karangan!
nirmal: i didnt la!
hockpin: somemore say u didnt lo. go and do like this to my pen somemore.
*hockpin demonstrates the thing nirmal did.* *suddenly his pen cracks!*
me and liann: OMGSH! u broke ure pen! LOL!

thn after the whole breaking the pen incident,,
he took out the parts and nirmal named them.
tip of the pen - the pointy thing
the grip - the rubber
the ink - the stick

mayyi: put the rubber at the pointy thing la! LOL!

omgsshh ,, sick minded us i tell u.
another story,,
ben was well, very tired today. (i wonder why)
so he 'sortof slept'
mmm hmmm,,
and when he slept hockpin took the STICK of the dismantled pen,
and stuck it well, at his STICK.
so SICK i tell u!
thn he used GUM the CUM.
goodness me.
they're my friends.

on contrary to tht,
me and nirmal have been talking about next year.
it all started when i explained to her about the reason i wanted to take personality pictures.
and well the reason is cos next year ~~some of the gang might be moving away.~~
and i dont want that to happen!
i feel really nostalgic or whatever right now cos i really CAN'T live without em.

first of all,,
and NIRMALPREETKAURGILABABIMONKEYDONKEYASS.
u CANNOT LEAVE JS LIKE THT.
i'll cry, i'll die,
i'll not survive.
who'll remind me to call my mum if i forgot?
who'll nudge me 'not-too-hard' when he's looking?
who'll be the one saying OMGSH! i SO feel the same!
who'll say im going temple tonight?
who'll i share my secret glances with?
OMGSH wanna cry d.
i dont wanna u turning into a lesbo!
ewww eww!
GORIGORI don`t go k?

&& steph!
omgsh! if u go then who will i give all my books to when i die?
u want my books, yeah?
DONT MOVE.
i DARE you.

SHAHIRA AQILAH.
if u go to tht MRSM or whatever shitty school right.
then no one will NOT TALK TO HOCKPIN!
if u go then bangga la he.
get his way in everything!
so u cannot go!
if u go thn who want to discipline him next time?

NICHOLAS.
i like the way u say NOOB
its sounds like.
NWEIB.
so if u go u have to record down for me or not i will miss it.

OMGSH?
chatting with hockpin told him about moving
said he might be moving to melb after his form 5?
OMGSH another missing one frm the family!

SIGHHHHH.
COUNTDOWN TO PMR - 30 something days .HAHAH
i dont even know! mygosh.
am i dead or WHT.

PMR coming! Stress. CHEH.

which reminds me.
piano results? :S

2008-09-10T17:28:00.002+08:00

Exotic Dancer Name Is...

Heaven

Exotic Dancer Name Generator

LOL!! HEAVEN! hahaha im heaven!

Your Boobies' Names Are...

Wonder Woman and Batgirl

Boobie Name Generator

OMGSH!! LOL wonderwoman?! AHAHA WONDERFUL!

You Are Smokin' Hot

You're a terrible flirt, a sharp dresser, and a party animal.

Of course, you're totally sizzling too. And for you, being hot just comes naturally.

Are You Hot?

SEEE! isnt that wht i told you guys all along? =P

2008-09-09T19:56:00.007+08:00

HAH!! u thought i was gonna stop blogging and disappear all over again didnt u? =P
too bad. cos im back.
&& geography sucked big time.

did the undiddable,

said the unsaidable,

thought the unthinkable,,

but it only worked halfway throughh..

MISERY

im not even making sense haha!
it must be contagiious,,
tht sickness of his.

its temporary merdeka now.
stupid open book test.
freaking lame.

&& ben ngoh is an I D I O T
he keeps reminding EVERY ONE ELSE about the but then thing.
ishishhh.. see if i'll call him again. =P

omgsh . this is soo cooool
they're all 3 lines.
SEE? =)

The real trouble with my sarcasm,
is that half the time when people think
I'm being sarcastic, I'm actually
being quite sincere.

sounds so prema doesnt it?

Put The Big Red Button on your site
CLICK IT!! GO ON! FUN!

this is about a boy
that i promised myself that i would not waste
another fucking word about.

LOOK HOW THAT TURNED OUT?

the boy that i vowed never to think about.
never to dream about.
never to...

but if i can even lie to myself,

i must sure as hell be a pretty good

liar.

Some days are better than others.
Some days I barely have time to think about you

And some days I miss you like crazy
And this some days are like everyday.

i'm not going to stress over you anymore. it isn't worth it.
i tried to work something out, but you ignored it. i'm not
trying to say i don't want you, because i definitely do.
all i'm saying is that i'm done chasing after you.
PLEASE come and get me already.

i keep looking for the slightest sign that you might miss what you left behind.
but you don`t do you?

I've been lonely tonight. I've been fighting the urge to

text him and tell him that I miss him. I don't want him to

know anymore. I wonder if he even misses me at all.

It's easiest when I don't see him, I won't deny that. But I

just want to be able to see him without it hurting. I don't

want him out of my life forever; I don't want him to me

even when you think your finally over that boy,
you finally think you like someone else,
you start reading quotes,
and it's still that same boy that pops into your head,
not the new one

i was falling apart enough with you around.
now that you're gone,
i don't know what to do with myself.
i hope you're doing well.
i hope you're happy.
but most of all,
i hope that you miss me too.

she's the girl who's always laughing her ass off with her friends.
you walk past her and think,
"wow she must really be over me."
but no, she's not over you.
she wants you, but you never gave her a shot.
she's not faking that smile.
she's happy, but with you? she'd never stop smiling.

I just got off the phone with you, sure, I cried.
But I did what I had to do; I had to say goodbye.

Everyday people look at me and they see someone strong.
But say his name to me, and you'll find out all that strength is just an illusion.

Forgetting isn't enough. You can paddle away from the memories and think they are gone, but they will keep floating back again and again and again. They circle you like sharks and you are bleeding your fear into the sea. Until, unless something, someone can do more than just cover the wound

you hear me?

♥

2008-09-05T20:24:00.004+08:00

woohooo!
time flies.
so they say.
stupid bloody exam takes forever to finish.

HAHA the black dots are flies! =/

SOOO....
to kill time this is wht i did.

Introducing the people sitting around me during the test.

First of all,, the oh-so-famous-but-not-cool ahem ahem Benedict Ngoh!
this dude here is insane i tell you.
worse than me,, imagine THAT.
he thinks he`s cool which he is DEFINITELY not
& shira made a really bad decision when she decided to admit that he looked cute in my glasses.
& dude,, CHEATING PARTNERS FOR LIFE! =)))))

& this is amsyar.

WHOOPS sorryyyy! Wrong picture! =))
THIS is amsyar.

he`s stares and u and make you laugh.
& yeah has the most hilarious laugh EVER.
he looks like a monkey! HAHAH.
oh and he likes to pull my chair away whn im about to sit .
u better watch ure back. im warning you.
i'll come get ya!
oh & prema ignores him! =)

yup. he's js trying to be cool.
nothing like that in real life.
LOL.
he`s ALIF the kampung boy!
LOL!. he's the alif who's place i always sit whenever there's no teacher.
this idiot here always tries to make me fall whn i pass his place .
TOO BAD.. i may not be wearing my specs but im not blind either! =P
jahat betul alif ni..

ZHEHOU the ZEBRA.
dont ask why. i wouldnt knw how to answer you.
Lols.
i have to repeat to him every single freaking time that its NO DEAL!!
he`s like born math genius haha.
but too bad for him cos i beat him in trials
and now he wants pay back.
& he asked me for the answer in math js now.
un-freaking-believable.

this small little pink dude..
never underestimate him.
he can annoy the heck outtta you.
seriously!!
Kuga never shuts up.
LOL. he'll go on and on.
and apparently his hobby is to throw rubber dust at julian?
wht the hell?

AND these two.
Mera na Cristiano Ronoldo.
Tera na Ronaldo nai hei.
those two.
hahaha & hockpin is nw hock gassie.
mygosh weird ass people.

i told hockpin
if im a fish i'd be an angelfish.
Lols & i asked him wht he'd be if he was a doggie
and here`s what he said.

__.xoxo.__ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє __.xoxo.__ says:
and u still havent told me wht doggie u wanna be
__.xoxo.__ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє __.xoxo.__ says:
LOL
- Zarry - says:
erm
- Zarry - says:
lol
- Zarry - says:
dono
- Zarry - says:
u choose for me
__.xoxo.__ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє __.xoxo.__ says:
paria dog thn
__.xoxo.__ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє __.xoxo.__ says:
-.-
__.xoxo.__ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє __.xoxo.__ says:
LOL!
- Zarry - says:
lol
- Zarry - says:
how does it look like ?
- Zarry - says:
cute?
- Zarry - says:
fat?
- Zarry - says:
garang onot?
__.xoxo.__ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє __.xoxo.__ says:
LOL!
__.xoxo.__ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє __.xoxo.__ says:
those yg kau jumpe kat tepi longkang those type la
__.xoxo.__ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє __.xoxo.__ says:
hahah
__.xoxo.__ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє __.xoxo.__ says:
menakutkan

hahaha. idiot. Lols.
im fishiie! he`s doggie.
& his name is paris the paria dog. =)

& idiot is like SO totally my new word right now.
LOL! idiot and gay. casey knws that first hand.
& NO! ure creaminator dream will never come true, sorry to burst ure bubble (mygosh tht sounds so wrong) .

RECIPE FOR ARSE-CREAM! (read: ar-se-cream. Like those chinese chinese people pronounce ice-cream like that la! Its an arsenal-flavoured ice-cream.)
- Vanilla - cos vanilla ice-cream is like the first ice-cream ever and everyone remembers
vanilla, dont they?
- Chocolate - cos chocolate ROCKS! and its heavenly.
- Fabregas punya sweat - whts arsenal without fabregas?
- A piece of thread from each players jersey - a dose of every one from the team.
- Some grass - from the field in emirates. i have no clue if its real grass or artificial
- Whipping cream - it sounds sexy LOL
- LOTS AND LOTS OF CHOCOLATE CHIPS. i dont think i have to explain that.

now who`s up for some ice-cream?

& this is casey`s Manchester United ice-cream
- Vanilla - he copied my idea.
- Red Hot Chilli - cos its red. devil red he said.
- & some minty stuff - cos they're cool. LOL.

but like i said,, my idea is better & no i dont want coupons frm you. =P
NOW who wants some ice-cream?
yup yup. SAY WHT?! LOL!
im high =)

2008-09-03T15:25:00.003+08:00

i dont knw why(actually i do knw why) but i was all of a sudden emo in school today.
didnt really felt like talking.
mygosh must be PMS.
so freaking annoying.
and i ignored nir li ann & the rest of the gang for a bit.
IM SO SORRRY GUYS.
and well poor hockpin i sort of pushed/ignore/grunted? at him whn he asked if i was staying back.
sorrry bastard. Lols.

i knw its not fair im being all moody with u guys but i really cant help it.
argh it really sucks being all depressed and shit.
poor table.
has really endured much today.

i only got 43 for paper one.
tht sucks
and stupid i cannot believe hockpin got 50.
stupid -.- and ben tooo.
idiots i tell u .

some ppl js have no idea.

okay i shall not be emo.
but i feeel emo.
ARGH.
stupidddd. nothing to blog anymore.

/edit

yesterday extra class was damn funny.
hockpin's cheek cell are made of ovum.
LOL.
the conversation was really funny.

MAYYI: See! I told you! Its ovum! Dont believe. Your cheek there got ovum la issit.
HOCKPIN: HAHA. Its cheeek cell la!.
MAYYI and SHIRA: OMG you so stupid la! Thought ur very experienced in 'these' things.
Thought u would have known better.

HOCKPIN: You got ovum what! You check la!
SHIRA: You check la!
HOCKPIN: =O!! Yer i ask you to check you ask me to check ! YOU want ME to check for
YOU ar?!
SHIRA: Stupid ask me stupid question. Since ur so EXPERIENCED go ask your sperm la! I'm
sure your sperm has met an ovum before.
HOCKPIN: =O!! *he was stunned*

hmmm , tell me. fish, internal or external fertillisation? oh and penguin too.

you knw the thingy at the snail's head.
LOL.
well, hockpin says its the antenna! LOL.
and thn shira went its the eye la!
you are so stupid u nvr watch spongebob?
GARY!!! Its his eyes! They'll go really huge and he'll go miaw. -.-

our gang lame factor has reached its limit and i officially over the top.
the 9 of us now who were once of the same blood, heart, soul (omigosh i can sense where this is heading), yeah well, is now seperated into two. LOL.
and who's fault is it HAR?!
it all began when Lame 1 (Shira) decided to NOT talk to Lame 2 (Hock Pin) for god knows what and how many reasons. LOL.
thn L1 stole L2's pencil box (oh which reminds me, pensil, or pensel?) .
& L2 needed it for his exam so decided to finally have ~~some balls~~ guts to stand up for himself and get his pencil box back. BUT clearly he failed.
So Lame 3 (Nirmal) who has had a change of hearts helped L2 by asking L1 for a pencil.
Thn she gave it to L2 who was not suppose to use it (or at least not SEEN to use it).
& she told Lame 4 (ME!) to not tell L1.
but didum didum. long story short,
L1 found out. NOT about me tho!
So she decided to not talk to them.
It was really lame really.

omg! tht is so hockpin!

Everytime Hockpin says something funny,
she'll go NOT FUNNY ALSO.
then cover her face and burst out laughing.
and after regaining her composure
look him in the eyes cehhhh,,
and said ure jokes are not funny.
LAME NESS I TELL U.
i think we'll never grow up!

after school,, li ann and steph came over.
we were hanging out [NOT THAT HANG] in my room.
they starter reading cleo and seventeen.
and steph was such a babe.
she cleaned my wardrobe. LOL!.
oh and li ann too!
she sew my badge!! LOL.

which made me realise that,,
im going to marry some one tht can:
❤COOK! unless have insurance you shouldnt ever EVER let me enter the kitchen. thn i'll really
be HELL's Kitchen.
❤DO THE LAUNDRY. you shuold see the clothes piling up in my room.
❤SEW . liann had to sew my badge ! she did it in like wht? 20 mins? it took me hours to sew
ONE badge and it didnt even turn out right!
❤CLEAN THE HOUSE . or at least one tht can afford to hire me a maid.
❤RICH. clearly.
❤HOT. wht do you think. obviously he must be able to stand beside me and STILL look
godsent!
❤RICH. shopping.
❤ROMANTIC. duh?
❤NON SMOKER. eww eww if you smoke go away. i want to live you knw.

ahhh! here it is! this is the one

ahhhh u get the point.
AND i have JUST the right person in mind, eh nirmal?
remember who was sweeping the floor js now?

OHHHHHHH
and i screwed up my piano exam.
Lols. and i would NOT like to talk about it.
except for the fact tht im NOT GOING TO HAVE AUNTY GUAT KIM ANYMORE!!!
i've going there since im like wht?
6 ? 5?
mygosh! no more MAYYI CHONG!! PRACTICE YOUR SCALES BEFORE I SMACK YOU!!
no more, RUSHING WHERE?!?!? you still have alot of time!
no more, yuck! where did that note come from.
i remember i killed her mozart. or was it beethoven.
HAHA was really funny.
gosh my results.
better pass, dont wanna disappoint her. =/
and BEL!!
no my second piece is freaking 7 lages long! you do NOT want to play it trust me.

2008-08-27T22:18:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA nirmal, stephanie says my blog is so much more interesting. =P
therefore i shall share edward with steph.
she gets him every wednesday. =P

school is so funny today.
during english we had to read this paper.
with doubles and idioms!
mygosh. so funny!
cock and bull story.
go bananas!
hard nut to crack.
by hooks and crooks
butter someone up! LOL.

butter!

my gawd. we were all laughing our asses of.
and the rest of the class hardly understoood why we were laughing.

and stupid lar.
science .
argh 77!
F it la.
ruin the cantik-ness only bangang.

hockpin's reaction about CHEESE is so funny.
everytime i look i wanna laugh.
omg. tht innoncent plus annoyed look.
AND HE'S BEING SO MEAN RIGHT NW!
he says his chocolate is higher class than mine
WOOT WOOT.

love em peeps!

it seems like everyone is going to pindah next year.
I DONT WANT THT.
its stupid.
nirmal tht stupid sri aman whatever guyless and MAYYILESS school.
shira tht mrsm thingy.
steph the semporna schoooooooool.
HAIHH. why la!
smk bbsl got mayyi tak cukup lagi ke.
haih haih.
and i dont wanna move to australia or whatever shit!
i need u ppl .
we've been through think and thin. hahaha we must STICK together !

PIANO EXAM IN 2 DAYS!!
i am so freaking nervous.
i can play.
i can.
but im so nervous tht it gets faster and faster.
OMG.
i js hope and pray and hope and pray
tht i can PASS.
a PASS is enough.

stupid scarlatti. stupid trills.

WHT IF I DONT?
=O

2008-08-26T20:34:00.004+08:00

you knw wht i'm doing right nw?
listening to tht stupid exam piece over and over again.
its on repeat.
and my fingers seem like they're gonna play the song.
right here on the keyboard.

like this gila person here

i'm so freaked out about piano exam .
i cannot believe its so soon!
MY GOODNESS!
i'm freaking nervous!
knwing me, my fingers would probably develop a mind of their own.
AND i'll loose control of my fingers and thn i'll play like a freaking insane person tht has no sense of tempo. LOL.
EVEN BENEDICT could tell i was getting faster! HAHA.

thereforeeeeee,,,
my teacher pinjam-ed me her matronome.
or however u spell it.
its the tick tock tick tock thing LOL.
BUT still i cant play the trillsssss.
OMG LARH PEOPLE TELL ME HOW!!! RAWRRRRRR

this is random man!! i typed in tick tock!

pfffftt.
got back results today.
omg so babi gila la.
Lols.
omg the song is so gila babi pro and i play like crap its starting to annoy me -.-
ANYWAYS
back to the topic.
SIGH resultsssss.
babiiiii i dont like hockpin!
ninety FREAKING one.
RAWR.
gay ass fella. ninety tak cukup ar still wanna add.
AND im so so so glad tht THE DEAL IS OFF.
yes people. i actually got one mark higher than zhe hou. LOL.
no moreeee deallll!! HAHAHA. and kesian hockpin he doesnt knw wht the deal is. =P

bloooooddyyyy.
prema is actually nice to talk to, i gotta admit.
she wanted to see nir in the bilik guru .
so US being US obviously had to go together.
Lols. she started saying some really funny things and we were laughing like mad.
nir even wanted to call her eh! LOL!

love em peeps!

SIR WILLIAM was so funny todayyyy.
hahhaha.
we were so anxious about our marks so I had a BRILLIANT idea.
which is to look for him in the office.
and whn we enter he was there marking our paper.
we were like OMGGG bloodyy hell .
we wanted to see our paper and he didnt let! LOL.
i was like omg my name! and he said he'll tolak 2 marks if i touch it .

thinking. =/

LOL. thn in the end some how we managed to pujuk him to let us help him count.
hahaha maybe cos im too hot! ceh wah.
thn we were counting counting so OMG i tell u.
Lol my hands were like shaking.

grinning like idiots.

at first there was like this paper with a lot of wrongs.
thn i was like OMG so many wrongs. thn whn i took a closer look it looked like zhe hou's handwriting.
thn me and nir distinguished tht thought cos OBVIOUSLY zhe hou wont have so many mistakes.
THN turned it really WAS zhe hou's paper.
by tht time we were shocked to death cos if zhe hou got tht many wrong imagine us la.
tn blabla one by one we count our paper.
we were both very shocked cos the geniuses marks and ours almost same gila babi.

acting lala! LOL u can barely see my eyes.

moral was so fun today.
we were sitting four by four.
me, nir, steph, liann.
lols. thn obviously the teacher started scolding us.
the PHAROAH. ahaha.
never judge a book by its cover!
and dont think js cos steph looks innocent she is harmless! LOL.
fighting with me over my edward .
tht bitch . she doesnt knw wht she is doing.
LOL. we spent 2 periods of moral fighting over who edwards belong to which is obviously me.
sigh they js dont knw when to let go , those girls. i pity them sometimes. =)

infinite hotness! im so lucky he's mine! =P

omg la. toblerone chocs! LOL.
i didnt even need to win it to get it.
ahhah and nirmal since u kutuk-ed me,,
im not sharing. =P

2008-08-25T23:57:00.003+08:00

HAHHAA!

take tht u bitches!
im blogging. bleks. second time in a row. =P

OPPPPPPS!!!
my mum calling me.
hahaha too bad .
i was gonna blog. REALLLY.
not.

okay lame. hahaa.

ps this is on purpose.
LOL. and nirmal i read ure blog u bitch!
i AM okay. js tht those ppl no eyes! =P

it was dark. there were cars.

2008-08-24T18:11:00.004+08:00

LOL.
seee nirmal im blogging again. =P
oh btw im wearing arsenal jersey nw.
lols.

LOL. we have a tradition of taking pictures frm under the table.

im so bored.
i cant believe school is starting tmrw!
i dont want! i think.
Lols.
i dont wanna knw my results.
takut giler babi.

hockpin is so LAME.
we started making 'cool' words
COOL WORDS.
definition - combination of words in english and malay
example - memboringkan; keterextreme.
origin - smsing with hockpin.
LOL okay. lameness. hahaha.
oh btw, hockpin.. mine is first. ures second.

LOL ahhhh.. so lil days left till pmr.
so takut la.
how ppl tell me LOL.

oh and im insane . LOL
been reading the whole holiday.
boooook-crazed.
I WANNA READ THE HIGH LORD.
so omg la the book.

cutie-footie!

hmm so yesterday i was dragged to jusco.
dont ask why.
Lol so the book was very omging so i sat in mcds to read.
and NO nirmal its not LAME.
cool okay.
SOOOOO
while i was eating mcds while reading at mcds,
my dad bought a 32 inch lcd tv.
GAY RIGHT?
we dont even have astro -.-

OHHHHH
the mcd guy is very weird.
NO not THIS GUY.
its the guy working there.
last time there were two guys fighting over who's plastic bag i should take.
now this guy kept askin me if i want a refill.
and whn i decline , he goes its free one.
if its not also dont worry. i'll pay for u .
WTH?

alar nothing to blog about. Lols. tata everyone.
OMG I FOUND SOMETHING!

A peach is a peach
A plum is a plum,
A kiss isn't a kiss
Without some tongue.
So open up your mouth
close your eyes,
and give your tongue
some exercise!!!
EWWW?!?!

it was dark. there were cars. wht can i say? =/

2008-08-06T23:22:00.002+08:00

Lols its becoming a habit isnt it.
Blogging once in a blue moon thn disappear until the new moon comes.
my gawd
EDWARDDDDDDD!!!!! LOL

i'm doing this in courtesy of nirmalpreet kaur.
she asked me to blog u see
and apparently whn i told her to blog for me
she says its MY BLOG
therefore i shall blog.
for her.

oh i have a msg for her.
EDWaRD IS MINE BITCH.
BACK OFF.
I READ HIM FIRST! LOL.
yes i mean it.
i READ him first.
Lols.
sounds so wrong
omg like u buka his baju.
thn u baca him
LOL.

kkk.
back to the topic.
oh wht ?
wht is the topic again?
seeeeeeee.
sidetracked. AGAIN.
LOL.

oh nirmal?
him and the singlet.
us and the underwear.
LOL.

Mayyi : Wht size are u?
Nirmal : I'm not sure. Why dont u check?
LOL!.

-inside joke- all i can say is nvr judge a book by its cover. thus not judging this by how it seems. its nothing like wht u think . just worst. =)

Can You Believe It?

2008-06-02T20:09:00.004+08:00

its about time i started blogging again eh? LOL.

HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOO PEOPPLLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEE.
HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOO WOOOOOOOOOOOOOORLDDD.

its beeeeen so long.
betcha missed me . =P

sooooooooo ,
what happened after i got happy was i got sad again LOL.
and everything js zooom zoom pass me.
and NOOOOOOW.....
here i am.

BLOGGING AGAIN =)))))

jeeeez.
i have been staring at the screen for such a long time.
i dont knw wht i wanna blog abt. LOL.
which sooner or later leads to totally stop trying and js leave my blog to die here. LOL

i wonder if u guys will actually get to read it .

oh right ..
so yesterday , my dad decided he wanted to go to Bkt Tinggi and Elephant Sanctuary.
so off we went to bukit tinggi.
why doesnt anyone knw where bukit tinggi is? Lol.
wht have u guys been doing during geography lesson huh? LOL

we left around 10 i think.
thn we went for breakfast and everything.
i think the exam has CUCKOOFIED [ no liann. not THT cuckoo LOL] my brain.
the whole trip there i couldnt stop being a smartass.
Lol.
was announcing to the car OH WE ARE AT BANJARAN TITIWANGSA.
"u knw its the longest banjaran........."
you get the picture. Lol
aiya whatever la u probably think thts not smart but i cannot rmbr wht else i said okay. Lol.

so went to bukit tinggi first.
on the drive up my dad kept saying
OH LOOK AT THE FLOWERS
LOOK AT THE ORCHID
LOOK AT THT FERN THERE BENEATH THE TREE.
my reaction was huh? where? all same only.
green green purple purple. LOL

JEWEL ! <3

we went HORSE RIDING!! [not rolling]
the horses are realllly realllly pretttyyyyyyy
Lol.
and they have realllllyy reallllllly long eye lashes.
LIKE AARON CHIN!! XD
they have really cool names too.
midnight, jewel, indiana rose, starlight
midnight wassss reallly realllllly pretty.
she was BLACK.
i like jewel better tho. =)))
nw i knw why little girls throw tantrum whn they're daddy doesnt buy them a horse.
i want one tooooo. =(
daddyy? XD

his name is Turner.

she looks so scared HAHA

later we went to elephant sanctuary.
it was soooo crowded.
different frm last time.
too many people nw.
Lol.
MAWAR IS SO BIG ALREADYYYYY!!!
last time she was so smallllllll. although small was quite big.
which means nw she's even bigger.
okay i dont think im making any sense.
ANYWAYSSS
mawar is so big nw.
i pity those elephants. =(
go round and round in circles while people ride on them.
they cant even go where they want to .
they're being controlled!

oh oh, a day before tht we went shopping!
and i can say tht i am a little bit satisfied. [never enough]
LOL.
roxy is my new found love.
Vincci has js dropped one notch.
i tried on like 5 pairs of heels.
and they had no size 5 or 6 for every single pair.
3,8 and 10 apparently were the only ones left.
stupid...
i had to push through so many ppl k.
Those TALL TALL oness. im not tht tall okay .
and no size they tell me .
RAWR
anyhow i went to the jusco one.
the one where no one goes to.
and TADAHHHHH!
my new darlingggg !! XDDD

been looking for it everywhere. lol
bought a pair of sunnies too! <333

this was before

was cleaning my room js nw and i found this.
YES I WAS CLEANING MY ROOM.
dedicated to tht one person.
all written whn i was EMO
hahaha.
gone are the days darling.
i'll never emo again.
ya rightt. pffttt.

~ THANK YOUUUU ~

2008-04-20T22:25:00.003+08:00

IM HAPPY TODAY!!
WOOH!
im not emo!!
im smiling.

SEE! SMILE!

I LOVE MY DARLINGS!!
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CHEE YERN LI ANN NIRMAL SU ZEN JIN RUI BENEDICT HOCK PIN GERALD & MUM!!

HAH who needs you bastard. TAKE THAT.

And every glance is killing me

2008-04-16T18:54:00.005+08:00

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

------

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back/but I know you did
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me

------

I need to know where do we go from here
Now that it's all up in the atmosphere
Like I cheated on you with her
Now we're even what happens from here

-----

We're like a long distance conversation
With a two second delay
Talk a lot but we don't listen
And we got so much to say

And I'm losing myself, and I'm feeling a little
Confused, I need help, I'm outta here so

-----

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

do you knw?

-----

Feeling the moment the slip away
Losing direction i'm losing faith
i'm wishing for someone
Feeling it all begin to slide
Turning to face what you've become
Bury the ashes of someone
Broken by the strain
Trying to fill that space inside

-----

This doesn't change the way i feel about you or your place in my life.
Cant you see I'm dying here a shot of broken heart that is chased with fear?

-----

YOU SAID
I don’t wanna face this world alone
Without you by my side
You’re the only one
That makes it feel like home
And I need you in my life
When you’re not around I’m feeling
Like a piece of me is missing
When it feels like the day is closing in
Somehow I find the faith
The moment I saw you
That’s when I knew
I feel it when I’m with you

-----

you left me hanging from the thread we used to swung together
i've lick my wounds but i never see them getting better

Now I'm broken,
And I'm faded,

I've been dying inside,
Little by little,

It's falling faster,
Barely breathing,
Give me something,
To believe in
Tell me
It's not all in my head

-----

And she's got everything that I have to live without

-----

I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?

It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say

I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday

-----

I'm moving in reverse
Under your mighty curse
I hate myself for loving you
I turn my head away
But my heart will remain
Till the day I learn you're No Good for me

It's illogical and it's outrageous
The way I let you keep me hanging on
Your character is that contagious
I know I should have thought before I had done
I've gone and let my impulse be my guide
And on that note I'll be defenseless for some time

Well I should know so much better than this
But you've occupied the center of my universe

-----

cant find a puzzle to fit into piece of apart of me

I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
Putting my heart back together.

-----

you have stolen my heart
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears i cried

-----

You said I was your everything
You said I was the one
You played me and like a radio
You used the love that I had no shame
Put my pain into words
Hold my hand to the flame
Tell me you love me like a star
Tell me you want me wherever you are
Tell me you breathe me till your last breath
LIAR

-----

it seems like you live a life without me
everything seems to have your time but us
my space in ur heart is closing up
said u would love and protect me
all i have are the words u left me
here i stand with the plans in my head
this cant be the kinda love that you said
dont leave me out here all alone
im losing you now

~ hopelessly devoted to you ~

2008-03-31T18:19:00.001+08:00

Guess mine is not the first heart broken, my eyes are not the first tocry
I'm not the first to know, there's just no gettin' over you

Hello, I'm just a fool who's willing to sit around and wait for you
But baby can't you see, there's nothin' else for me to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside
I'm not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you, hopelessly devoted to you

My head is saying "fool, forget him", my heart is saying "don't let go"
Hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside
I'm not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you, hopelessly devoted to you

no mood to blog ar.
js read this lah.

~ maybe someday, i'll be that comet ~

2008-03-21T19:48:00.004+08:00

its been such a long long time since i last blogged.
AGAIN.

my life has been really depressing lately.
its like everythings outta control.
it really sucks u knw.

haih...
js ask me.
omg.
to those who knw.
u knw.
to those who dont.
thn u dont.
but i'll tell u.
u dont wnana be me.
HAIH.

volleyball season is almost over =''''(
its like for the past 2 months
we've been training.
frm 2-5 sometimes even 6.
thn the friendly matches and all.
and my skin has really endured alot u knw.
and js like tht its gonna be over.
NUUU.

i cannot imagine not staying back everyday after school.
no more public transport with the gang.
no more casey and his MU-ness
no more jun hao and his GAY-ness
no more kang chai and his KISIAO-ness
no more gerald and his READY-ness
no more choon kiat and his .... QUIET and KIND-ness.
omgggg.
im so gonna miss it man.
although its tough and all.
although the teacher is really fierce and all.

HAIH.
memories are all i have left.

last training is tmrw.
and the important ppl are not even gonna be there.
nir [as usual]
chee yern
suzen

omg. im feeling emo again. haih

ommmmeeegawwwwwwwwd.
immmm sooooooo saddddddddd larrrrrrrrrr
darn.
he sucks he sucks.
but he also doesnt suck
RAWR.

have will-power li ann.
nike say js do it.
i say DONT DO IT!
dont be like me. hahha.

today i stayed back for the prefect thingy
woot woot.
it was really....
boring no offense.
and i kept kicking casey's ball XD
HAH! i got you .
dirty minded arr u.
wht were u thinking?
i meant volleyballs k.
=p

omg this is crap.
im js gonna stop here.
i might go insane soon.
blogging is alot like talking to ureself.
and no, i dont wanna turn into a chee yern.

oh shit,
anyone studied yet?

___________its an epic love story; just not ours. -xxx

~ pink underwear? XD ~

2008-03-14T14:36:00.003+08:00

OMG! i tell u.
i am freaking pissed with my mum.
dontwanttoelaborate.
RAWR.

so yesterday we had a friendly with sri suria
it was funny la.
haha.
we won btw.
and it was really funny cos i only played for like 2 minutes?
hahahaha.
but we still won so who cares.
and sorry no pics.

we got to the school bus stop at 8.15.
and only few were there
waited for the bus for such a long time.
lol.
and chee yern's mum came and told us to becareful.
LOL.
dont chase chickens!! XD

reach tht place near sri suria we went to eat in this so called restaurant.
haha.
we ate some chinese noodle and FUCKIN MEE.
hahhaa.
casey la.
hokkien mee. in cantonese.
fu-kien mee.
he say fuckin me pulak.
LOL.

thn we went there played everything blabla.
thn they wanted to go MV cos they won.
so i called my mum .
she said yes amazingly.
LOL.
and so we went.
to watch step up 2.
turned out.
NO STEP UP 2.
only six tickets left.
and we had 11 person.

so we ended up eating mcd and going to pets wonderland.
LOL!
yeah pets wonderland.
haha
casey's home.
we saw this weird looking coral.
LOL!
according to chee yern..
its the obscene looking plant!
hahaha.
funny sial
LOOOL.

thn wait for the bus super long .
and the ktm. super long.
LOL.
and it was so stuffy.
we were standing in the crowded train.
i was practically suffocating!!
LOL.
and i was squashed by casey and his XL sized bag.
and chee yern was apparently making obscene noises
which made li ann and casey crack up.
thn i was liike so blur why they were laughing
but joined in l8er on cos the sight of them laughing in such a crowded train is darn funny.
haha.

got home. bath.
head hit the pillow.
tidur

HIMHIMHIM

~ sexy? =) ~

2008-03-10T19:42:00.003+08:00

SO FINALLY!
im back home.
after so many days..
my bed nvr felt this comfortable before.

so on thursday..
volleyball friendly.
first time travelling by public transport.
KTM was okay..
bus..
not so pleasant.
Lol.
going was okay. coming back i was squashed by casey and his gigantic bag.
LOL.

we ate mcd tho.
<33

after the friendly tht day reached sg long abt 7.30
thn straight went to the hospital.
friday stayed there.
saturday stayed there.
sunday stayed there.

basically i was like a patient there already.
except no IV drips and ugly hospital gown.
Lol.
did some things i wouldnt normally do under normal circumstances.
like..
eat alone in a cafeteria..
was a weird experience.
Lol.

i was really bored so i went exploring the place.
went to every floor.
and suddenly i saw this ray of light.
shining thru the window
IT WAS A COMPUTER.
okay im exagerrating.
but still .
it was a computer.

at first i used it.
no msn.
sakai one.
the next time
i couldnt tahan.
i downloaded WLM.

so i kept on going up and down the hospital.
lol.
i went in the lift so many times
i realised tht even if ure going up..
u feel like ure going down.
LOL.

i miss stranger's watch la.
haha.
the very heavy watch lol

okay la. very tired la .
no mood to blog.
haih.
things happen.

~ hijau boleh hijau berjuang hijau menang! ~

2008-03-02T22:17:00.002+08:00

SOOO,,
the reason i havent been blogging these few days is..
I WAS SO BUSY!
and tired.
LOL.

hijau boleh!!

sports day was a blast!
and to top tht off..
RUMAH HIJAU WAS FIRST!!!!
its like a cherry on top of my sundae of hardwork!
LOL!

this years sport's day was the best since std 1
Lol.
its like soo...
fun nice enjoyable blabla
it was nice.
like smth worth rmbring.
Lol.
maybe its cos we won and it actually feels like we won cos i actually did smth.
i was more involved.

all the staying back
and getting our ~~fingers~~hands green..
and running around getting paint.
cutting polystrene.
and names being written in the buku kawalan
IS ALL PAID OFF!

oh and the running..
okay,,
technically i sucked.
but at least i tried.
HAHA.
and cried too.
LOL.

tht is me running! @@ looks like im flying! XD

and parading around the field looking like a freaking alien too!
it was like im screaming
"look at me! alien coming thru"

and warning to whoever is reading this,,
wearing heels and walking around the padang is NOT FUN!.
it hurts okay.
alot .
and u have to try and balance and walk without stepping into puddle of water
and must walk fast with a poised posture holding THIS coconut tree like thingy with isnt stable and is going to fall any moment .
it sucks.

green house perbarisan was cool in a lame way.
LOL.
we were soldiers marching.
yes the shirt we painted.
and they were holding guns! yes those cute fellow form 1 and 2s.
the for the persembahan they did the tugu negara stance!
funny okayy.
but still we got first
so who's complaining! =P

and the khemah ..
we got first too!
LOL
tht was unexpected honestly.
LOL.
so our veins and mushrooms and rocks.
were worth it .
LOL.

when they were hias-ing the khemah

zul is weird.
very very weird.
he came behind me and started saying..
mayyi! tadi awak nampak tinggi tau!
saya tengok kamu saya pun terkejut!
tinggi giler!
LOL!
stupid guy lar.
hahah

nw i keep typing lar instead of la.
i dont like lar.
it looks weird.
but it seems as if my fingers have developed a mind of their own.
keep typing LAR.

casey kena bang by our fellow hijau-ian

omgg...
after sukan volleyball pulak.
i already look malay enough nw lagi worse.
LOL.

all the political stuff thts going on nw
is confusing the shit outta me.
LOL.
my dad and all keeps complaining abt hw the goverment are bad and all.
blablabla.
and tht they predict there might be a riot.
oh well..
not my problem anyway.

see their happy happy faces!

casey sabotage us lar! LOL

~ so CMM-ish ~

2008-02-26T19:33:00.003+08:00

LOL
omg
I.AM.SO.TIRED.
jeezz..
and im so black already...
=''''(
my stomach and my hand is like...
SO MUCH DIFFERENCE.
chocolate and vanilla.

LOL. let me see i forgot wht happened yesterday..
my mind seems to be in a blur nowadays.
stupid flips and sparks.
hahaha.

oh ya.
prema sucks.
she is such a tuut.
stupid larh.
simply do those stupid crap stuff.
babi asshole.
she has got smth against me .
and li ann
and nirmal
and shahira.
i think she hates smart ppl =))

omg la.
i freaking dont wanna go on saturday!
RAWR ,
i dont wanna wear a freaking green alien looking dress.
STUPID LAR!
ishhhhh.
alarrrr!
tak suke!

must run.
so scary lar.
hw.
haih.

and chee yern.
here's so u wont feel left out.
U SUCK! =P

~ ever ever after ~

2008-02-24T21:55:00.004+08:00

TODAY SUCKED.
basically..
hes an asshole FULLSTOP.
RAWR.

at least had fun with sarah and manda and anna and lydia.
LOL they all have christian names.
except for me.
LOL.
why arr.
gave sarah her pressie.
hope she likes it. =D

on saturday went for volleyball.
the teacher seemed like he was in a good mood.
LOL.
he didnt even scold anyone.
LOL.
and he calls me ah mayy for some reason.
LOL.
yes.. funny i knw..

chee yern : he even rmbrs ure name nw! since u could serve well
XD XD

was i really tht bad before this? hahaha.
sighh.. really like it. but suck at it ? LOL.

must bend! LOL

stupiddd laaaa.
tmrw got extra class.
sakai shit one.
my mum is like saying
u cant even play volleyball wht for go so many times..
everyday stay back.
if not volleyball then extra class.
not extra class thn latihan sukan.
one week only see u one time.
LOL .
blah blah blah.
she misses me? =P

DO-OVER ROCKS OKAY!
georg [pronounced gay-org! haha] is sooo sweet!
LOL.
if only real life got this sorta guys. *hint hint*

read this ppl!

LOL.
i dunno why but i feel like going for prefect camp.
this is so random.
but suddenly im all in the mood for err..
going to prefects camp? LOL.
dont ask why.

love is patient [i dah tak tahan. issit not love thn?]
love is kind [yeah but i still cant help being mean?]
it does not envy [i envy him okayy! thn issit not love?]
it does not boast. [no comment]

List of movies i wanna watch.
-27 dresses
-step up 2
-jumper

STUPID LA whn only will i get my freedom.
jeeeeeez.

OH YA...
and tht day i saw teacher wendy.
my primary school teacher.
Lol.
the first thing she said was
MAYYI! YOU LOOK LIKE A GIRL ALREADY! @@
swt rightt.. i mean like wth?
i looked like a guy last time?
second thing was
WAH SO TALL ALREADY!
hahaha tall! hahaha.
she said i used to run around chasing guys.
Lol.

and im black ade.
HAIHHH.
so dark ar!
went to jusco
one stupid lady started speaking to me in malay.
tuut her.
LOL.

~ say u love me ~

2008-02-22T21:52:00.002+08:00

LOL so wht happened was..
PREMA SUCKS!
yeah well..
she's stupid .
its like she has something against me and nir.
and li ann and shira.
STUPID LA.
bias~
not gonna elaborate on wht happened js incase u knw some tuut comes and read this.

yesterday we celebrated liann's birthday.
hahaha.
it wass wayy funny.
LOL.
we ordered pizza ahem ahem casey..
Lol.
and we ate the park.
romanticc okayy..
except got no guy there la.
hahaha.
sadly .
and we started climbing on the benches and chairs and tables.
lol.
and Chee Yern and Suze were like singing.

thn we came home and started playing this game where the king gets to pick anyone to do anything.
HAHA.
so funny i had to do the waltz with liann.
@@
thn the camwhoring started.
no mirrors this time casey. LOL

thn we went thru our last year drama practice vids!
so totally funny okay! hahhaa.

OKAY SO TODAY,,
our chapter 4 continued.
LOL
the guys were high.
LOL.
stupid la they,
so sick minded
hahaha.
and ben was sitting next to me cos chia was sitting next to nick.
the teacher said smth abt a guy eating so MEDICINE
and thn it become .... LOL.
u knw la.
and the started saying..
wht if an old man walking thn suddenly..
come out.
LOL
omg la.

LOL bad people they all.
corrupting young innocent girls mind.
LOL poor us. me and nir.
we've learned our lessons .
sitting behind guys.
LOL

piano class today.
okay okay la.
so sleepy.

tmrw gotttt volley.
LOL

~ love hurts ~

2008-02-20T20:19:00.002+08:00

sigh so today in school
was depressing?
i dunno why i keep going on emo-strike.

sigh if only u didnt exist.
IF ONLY GIRLS STILL RULE AND BOYS STILL DROOL.
my wouldnt be half as complicated.

JEEZ i cant quit being emo.
rawr.
i dont wanna be.
js cant help it?

this is wht i made for myself LOL

i was inviting her into my heart
she was out riding in some other man's car..
ladidadida.
im obsessed with tht song nw.
ask li ann.
she'll knw.

oh and Zhe Hou's chapter 4 finally came.
LOL.
happy lah they.
Nick kept on asking weird weird questions.
Does the sperm come out automatically. -.-
I nvr knew he had tht in him LOL.
and some one said...
cikgu,,
kalau kena bakar?
XDDD

i hate tht physco stalker guy.
omg he is one shit weirdo.
can u imagine this random UGLY ASS guy..
walking to u and starts asking for ure phone number.
go to hell la.
pls la.
go get ure brain fixed!
jeez so freaky you knw.

weird ass guy : whts ure name.
mayyi : err... *looks away*
weird ass guy : ure name mayyi?
mayyi : err yea.
weird ass guy : whts ure phone num?
mayyi : no phone.
weird ass guy : dont lie la. i knw u have phone.
mayyi : no phone. *turns around*
weird ass guy : someone told me u have a phone.
mayyi : NO PHONE!

SHAHIRA AND WAH LUNG COMES TO THE RESCUE! Lol.
so freaking weird okay..
and to make matters worse the conversation went in chinese. @@

everytime i pass by the sharlinie notis whn walking to the canteen
i cant help but laugh.
i knw its evil.
but everytime i see it i start laughing.
LOL.
i feel so..... mean.
LOL.

rawr tmrw got BM.
haih.
im surely screwed.
stupid prema. ISH
out to ruin my life like its not already ruined.

and nir..
cheer up.
whn worse comes to worse u can always use the pay phone in school?
XD
its like we're connected.
we get depressed on the same day.

if you were not planning on catching me , why make me fall?
and i thought u understood.
life sucks.
love is stupid OMG.

thts where i went wrong

waking up is hard to do.
slping is js impossible to.

~ i was inviting him into my heart ~

2008-02-19T19:33:00.003+08:00

HAIH.
i dont get it.
IM NOT LAPSAP la.
stupid stranger.
stupid zhe hou.
LOL!
them rubbish.
hahaha.

the game is fun.
Lol.
in a lame wayy.
who stand up is a dog.
who sits down is a rubbish.
LOL.
lame shitt!
but fun. hahhaha.

omg.
the new volleyball teacher..
is so small?
HAHAHA.
so small.
so invisible.

my lips hurt.
its bengkak.
everytime after volleyball my lips hurts.
and its red.
and thick. LOL.
li ann -.-
kiss la. kiss somemore.
LOL.
well u wouldnt knw.
i dont kiss and tell. LOL.

I WANNNNTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT...
omg omg.
i feel like...
i dont knw.
omg.
i dont knw hw i feel.
ZOMG im going crazy

was emo-ing in volley.
thn went to run.
thn after tht volley.
was actually in the court today.
but obviously ..
the only time i hit it
it went out. LOL.
pandai rightt.

omg my othh bila keluar.
stupidddddd laaarrr.

i cannot handle this la .
omg.
him him tht one tht one.
over there over there.
DING DONG .

see i told u i gila.
no thnks to?
haiya ownself guess.

i feel it.
i feel it coming back
STUPID LA.
why am i so .....
over-sensitive?
jeez.

~ gallas ganas. ~

2008-02-17T23:19:00.003+08:00

OMG LA!
arsenal fishing LOST.
4 to nothing.
i cannot believe this.
looks like my faith didnt work afterall.
JEEZ.
i stayed awake and they lost! LOL.
haihyo.
teruk la.
tmrw school.
i don't knw hw to face it LOL!
nvm . MU still sucks. Lol.
ARSENAL is in the dictionary.
Manchester United isnt. =PP

yesterday li ann came over to watch the match.
we stayed at my grandpa house.
she was hyper.
and i kesian her nose.
LOL.
the stupid teacher go use the ball bang her nose.
HAHAHA
i dont like the teacher.
he dont let me play RAWR

im addicted to the song
'Go On Girl' nw thanks to casey. hahah
im too fly to be depressed LOL
and i like No Good frm OTH epi 7.
omg i wanna watch episode 8.
stupid Lindsay.
stupid Nanny.
ish ish ish..

im so freaking doomed.
i havent read the stupid novel.
its so boring La.
ciplak story LOL.

Shu Shen and them came today.
went for lunch in the club haha.
thn after tht we went for basketball.
LOL.
basketball reminds me of CMM.
dont ask why.
omg hes so hawtt.

there's kelas tambahan tmrw.
at least i think there is.
LOL.
after kelas tambahan volleyball.
omg.
siao.
but wht if the teacher doesnt let me play again wht am i gonna do there.
@@
jeez he js likes to complicate my life.
LOL.

ohh and tht day,
on saturday,
hahahha.
couldnt concentrate on volley at all.
got cute guy and red guy.
LOL.
so distracting.

and js my luck.
whn they were there,
THE BALL HAD TO HIT MY FACE.
3 TIMES.
ZOMG.
so malu okayy.
and he freaking compared me to his son.
@@
he sucks RAWR.

chocolate my anti-depression.
oh and my phone too.
LOL.
sigh sigh nirmal u lucky bitch .

LOL.
i had an extremely weird gaga dream last night.
we were watching the match
and arsenal scored
he cried LOL.
nir came . with a MU jersey [traitor]
i started scolding her.
we fought.
LOL.

xoxo? =P
u knw la.

2008-02-15T21:59:00.003+08:00

omg! hahaha.
today my soul partner didnt go to sch.
i was stuck with Zhe Hou.

i actually did my math in sch.
and finished it.
without copying anyones book.
sooooo proud of myself.

Lol.
its so stupid tmrw we have to go to sch.
prefects meeting.
i think i might ... DIE
if i look at casey.
omg gagaga.
today itself also i can carely tahan myself frm laughing.
HAHA.
supercaseyman xD

stranger didnt come today.
so i sat next to zhe hou.
his communication skills very teruk la
LOL.
cannot understand wht he say onee.
the way he talks like...
got this weird accent .
and its js funny la!
hahah i dunno hw to explain.

oh and i think im not depressed anymore =D
i js suddenly felt not depressed.
hahaha.

˚° ιіаnn °˚ •● nirmal the rapper ●• says:
OMGGGGGGGGG
˚° ιіаnn °˚ •● nirmal the rapper ●• says:
mayyi u perv laaaaaaa
____.:xoxoxo:.____ [ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє ] ____.:xoxoxo:.____ http://loud-and-wild.blogspot.com says:
LOL!
˚° ιіаnn °˚ •● nirmal the rapper ●• says:
think of underwears!
____.:xoxoxo:.____ [ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє ] ____.:xoxoxo:.____ http://loud-and-wild.blogspot.com says:
hahhaha i cant help it okayyy
____.:xoxoxo:.____ [ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє ] ____.:xoxoxo:.____ http://loud-and-wild.blogspot.com says:
ahhaha
____.:xoxoxo:.____ [ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє ] ____.:xoxoxo:.____ http://loud-and-wild.blogspot.com says:
u keep saying low low
____.:xoxoxo:.____ [ γου κոоω уоυ Լоνє мє ] ____.:xoxoxo:.____ http://loud-and-wild.blogspot.com says:
i keep thinking red red

haha i cant help it okayy..
it js pops into my mind. HAHA.

~ suicidal ~

2008-02-15T00:11:00.002+08:00

i have no mood to type stuff.
lets js say there was no MAGIC or MIRACLES.
js let downs and teardrops?
emo giler.

it sure as hell does.

i need them no matter wht.

tell me abt it. i smile whn u turn

sometimes photobucket read my mind

okayy, i cant.
if i go on i might attempt suicide?
yahh.
nirmal this is no jumping of the building and climbing down the flag pole.
LOL.
i might js try gas.
or i'll look for achmed.

2008-02-13T20:01:00.002+08:00

omgomgomg.
MY HAND EFFING HURTS~
stupid stupid volleyball.
stupid stupid teacher.
lols.

tmrw will be the most depressing
terukest,
sadest,
WORSTEST day of my life.
lols.
i have no one to celebrate it with.
unless u count Moo Moo Ann, and Caseyman? hahaha.

jeez.
i dont like valentines.
ishh.
RAWR
this post is crap la.

flipped today okay..
alot of times.
Lol.
in the science lab.
LOL
can see anot can see anot?
LOL.
red colour punya nirmal!
hahaha.
faham faham la . HAHA.

omg distractions distractions.
stupid ISH babi
dah no mood

~ retard ~

2008-02-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA.
today first day of sch since the CNY break.
it was boring?
hahah yes. and sad.

my lovey lovey ppl

LOL.
i loveeeee nirmal today.
she's so kind, smart and PRETTY? hahaha
im js saying.
LOL.
i was like so freaking FREEZING stoned cold.
thn she was all
STRANGER SHES GONNA GET HYPERTHERMIA!
and he was like DOT DOT DOT.
okayy,, u and i knw wht he did. HAHA
thinking abt it also makes me flip! omg.

the pengetua is SO boring!
she was all motivational talk and ntg else.
Lol.
so super dee duper dee boring,
thn suddenly she'll start teaching us geo suddenly.
aiyooo i tell u.
u must plan ure time.
make a time table.
everybody i want to see ure timetable.

omg! yes!!! my phone!
hahahha the pics!
finally =DDD
i can upload d picsss..
yippeedidoo!

ohh back to the topic..
LOL.
volleyball.
today was okay la.
kinda fun.
messed around only.
LOL.
and and nir..
we wore the same jersey.
LOL. thn everyone was like arsenal sucks? AHAHA
they no brain.
LOL.

OMG!
hahhaha yes!
XD
he's on! HAHHA.
omg im high.

P. & Co is LOVE

jeeeeeeeeez.
2 more days and counting.
not looking forward to it.
haihyooo.
why cant we not like anyone. =x
it js makes everything more confusing u knw.
boys and all tht shit.
RAWR.

okay lah.
i ntg to blog ready.

OH AND ONE MORE?
MY bro SUCKS!
hes stupid
im js saying.

~ nonsense ~

2008-02-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored so im like doing some weird personality stuffs nw.
its kinda funny wht u get u knw.
should try.
LOL.

You Are a Banana

You are mellow, easy going, and a total softie on the inside.
People find it really easy to get along with you. You suit most tastes.

And while you're very sweet, you're not boring or ordinary.
You have an attraction to the exotic, and you could show up anywhere... doing almost anything!

You are spirited, energetic, and a total kick to be around.
You're also quite funny. Your sense of humor is on the goofy side, and it fits you well.

What Type of Fruit Are You?

HAHA B-A-N-A-N-A!

What Chong May Yi Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

whoaa! it is kinda true okayy...

The Recipe For Chong May Yi

3 parts Genius
2 parts Flirtation
1 part Magnetism

Splash of Class

Limit yourself to one serving. This cocktail is strong!

What's the Recipe for Your Personality?

HAHAHA magnetism! LOL

You Are a Witch (or Warlock)

You are deviously brilliant and a perfect manipulator.
You somehow always end up getting what you want - without anyone knowing you're working behind the scenes.
Crafty and cunning, you can work your way out of any jam.
And it's easy for you to get people to do what you want, whether you're working for good or evil.

Your greatest power: Mind control

Your greatest weakness: Making people your puppets

You play well with: Ghosts

What Kind of Monster Are You?

im a witch HAHA

You Are a Coy Flirt!

You're not so much a flirt as the type of girl who draws flirts in
While you look like you're just relaxing, secretly you've got your game on
A little look here, a little wink there... you give men the encouragement they crave
And in return, they flirt up a storm with you - while you just sit and smile

What Kind of Flirty Girl Are You?

fuyoo! really ke. hahah

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

but i want LOVE nw ='''(

Your Pirate Name Is...

Evil Fanny La Bouche

What's Your Pirate Name?

You Are 73% Feminine, 27% Masculine

You are in touch with your feminine side.
Sensitive, intuitive, and caring are all words that describe you.
And you're just masculine enough to relate to both men and women.

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

pheww!

You Are A Romantic

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

oh really? some people tend to think im not =X

Your Kiss is Pink

For you, kissing is pure happiness... simple as that.
You definitely get a little blissed out from kissing, even if you're a bit shy about it.
You won't kiss just anyone. Your kisses are special!
Young at heart, you still get very excited the first time you kiss someone.

Kissing Type: Generous

People See Your Kisses as: Sweet

You Kiss Best With: A Black Kisser

Stay away from: An Orange Kisser

What Color Is Your Kiss?

if u are a black kisser tell me okay. XD

Your Birthdate: May 1

You are a natural born leader, even if those leadership talents haven't been developed yet.
You have the power and self confidence to succeed in life, and your power grows daily.
Besides power, you also have a great deal of creativity that enables you to innovate instead of fail.
You are a visionary, seeing the big picture instead of all of the trivial little details.

Your strength: Your supreme genius

Your weakness: Your inappropriate sensitivity

Your power color: Gold

Your power symbol: Star

Your power month: January

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

woot woot. supreme genius! LOL

~ his face so ugly. ~

2008-02-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

okayy.. so yesterday..
I SAW SARAH!!!
miss her loads..
i havent seen her in like AGES.
hahaha.
she played the piano for me =D

thn after church
i came home..
watched HEREOS!!
hiro is shoooo cute.
ying's impersonation of him is totally ALIKE!
omg. haha.

YATTA!!!

thn after hereos,,
went SHOPPING!
hahah bought a few tops frm pdi and p and co.
LOL.
p & co rawkz okay!
hahaha.
sadly no cute guys? hahaha.

went to italiannies for dinner!
WAS SUPER DEE DUPER DEE YUMMY!
we had...
roast chicken
this spinach thingy thts VERY YUMMY
and salmon fetuccini which is.. pasta with salmon.
and chicken caesar salad.
and the hot chocolate!
i tell u ...
heavenly!! XD

you people should go there one day.
worth going.
and the pizza..
CHUN!

today..
li ann, steph, chia, ben, nick, chei and kee boon came.
vivi also.
and winnie and her friend sherine.
thn l8er scott and trysha came too!
LOL.
trysha is so SMALL!
LOL.

they came over and we started chit chatting.
and my mum was like okay..
WHICH ONE IS BEN!
AIYOOO SO HANDSOME ARH!!
LOL.
super swt okay.

and we ate, chit chatted, ate, play cards and all.
it was okay la.
tho kinda boring.
LOL.
thn after tht we went to the park.
the girls played volleyball .
guys played football.

and i was supposedly almunia.
thn they kept kicking the ball somewhere else.
they'll nvr succeed as football players la.
and thn i so pandainya went and sit on the rock beside the goal post tree.
THN
there was this weird BLACK INSECT tht was flying around.
and thn..
it suddenly landed on my finger
and i felt smth POKED ME!

it was so freakin pain!
omg.
i dunnu la.
it was a freaking bee.
STUPID STUPID BEE.
u people probably think it was JS A BEE STING
but iit hurts okay.. !
and nw its bengkak.
ishh.

bees! only they arent so cute in real life

okayy la.
i lazy to blog .
talking to stranger nw
HAHAHA

~ drunkards ~

2008-02-09T01:10:00.000+08:00

LOL.
im blogging frm my friends house nw. OMG.
hahaha.
its 1 am.
and my parents are downstairs talking .
and drinking.
LOL.

im so freaking bored right nw.
hahaha.
so wht happened today was...

THE GANG CAME OVER.
okayy.. the gang minus steph.
hhaha.
we ate.
and ATE.
and stoned.
LOL.
played SPEED. and believe it or not.
SCRABBLE!
hahaha. we sang.
and obviously camwhored.
tho today im not in the mood.
i have no idea why.

hahaha.
everyday at around 2-4 pm..
i'll get depressed.
i have no idea why. LOL.
and its like i have no mood for anything.
LOL.
stupid stuffs la maybe. LOL.

thn after the gang left...
got ready to go to uncle jasons house.
LOL.
im in love with eye linerrr <3333

we went to uncle jasons house thn went to the restaurant.
ALOT OF FOOD!
alot alot.
hahah.
cannot finish. LOL.
the fish wass good tho. =DD
yingg.. fish. we're related apparently!

thn we crapped alot while waiting.
and eating.
l8er went back to their house .

LOL.
it was like a music house!
LOL.
guitar, piano, bass .
LOL.
can form band sudah.
Lol.
omg after everysentence there is a LOL.
lol.
see. hahah.
LUEN's electronic guitar is sooo HOT!
cool wei.

sry no pics ppl.
LOL.
their all in my phone i cant upload it into this comp. HEHE

tata ppl. its 1.21 am.
uh oh..
i think we might be leaving soon. NOO.
hahaha.

~ money money money ~

2008-02-07T16:07:00.000+08:00

Haha.
yesterday was New Year's eve.
made almond flakes.
LOL.

so freaking tired.
and after baking them..
i dont even feel like eating em anymore.
LOL.
see too much ade.

at night.. went over to grandpa house for reunion dinner.
LOL.
we ate..
and ate..
AND ATE.
and talked
played ps2.

all glammed up XD

Lol.
thn l8er came home
wan yin came over.
played speed ahaha.
i won 50 cents.
Lol.
thn we watched heroes.
omg nw i feel like watching hereos.

LOL.
yorr.. i feeeeell sooooooo deeepppreesseddd..
iiitt loookks cooooolllerr ifff u tyypppppee liiiiikeee thhhisss.
swt. NOT.
thts wht stranger said.
Lol. nw he left. omg
gila babi i feel so depressed.
ALL OVER AGAIN.

T__T
ishh ishhh.
i dont like getting depressed.
and those stupid fireworks at night doesnt help much either.
LOL.
i was trying to imagine smth.. NICE.
thn its goes weeee...POP.
so annoying.
Lol.
unless u are the one playing thn different story la.
Lol.

today morning woke up went to church.
LOL.
i wore clip on earings
THEY HURT LIKE CRAP.
nw my ear red red.
LOL.

clip on! Lol. its my grandma's.

came home.. lunch.
thn gamble.. with cousins.
LOL.
i won 3.50.
we played 10 cents 10 cents.
Lol.
very funny la.

im soo bored nw.
omg..
i wanna go to SCHOOL.
i dunno why.
maybe its cos..?
NVM ..

single awareness day
is almost here.
NW im the only one left ='''''(
and im not looking forward to it.
so much for magic and miracles.