OMGSHHHHHHH!! nervous breakdown!

I CANT FREAKING SLEEP!!
this is killing me!
im feeling so jumpy and i got the butterflies LOL.
i wanna scream jump and vandalise something !! :S


was on the phone with chee yern,,
no, its not JUST pmr.
its PMR!


omgshomgshomgshomgshomgshomgsh
wht am i gonna do!


i can actually make a soundtrack of how i feel right now.

first, in the morning i tell myself SO WHAT. thn my optimism started to GET LOW. i keep telling myself that IT DOESNT MATTER, NO (cos i got you XD) . so i distracted myself with shopping and talking to my GIRLFRIENDS. & try to EASE MYSELF. when i was on the QUIETDRIVE back home frm shopping, my mind started to fill with really bad, bad images. so i tell myself, this anxiety has got to stop- IT ENDS TONIGHT. but tht was then. right now, i can't help but feel like MY WORLDS GONNA COME CRASHING DOWN. and what determines it is just some, like it or not, ALPHABETS!. tomorrow morning i knw im going to freak out and wanna turn back, but i DONT WANNA MISS A THING. so i have to JUST STAND UP, HEADSTRONG, & KEEP HOLDING ON till i get the piece of paper that, somehow will determine my future. Right now i just wanna CLOSE MY EYES, and try to LET IT BE. i might even need to be SLEEPING WITH MY LIGHTS ON, just in case.

and tomorrow will be the fox 20th century theme song.